I figured out why I make so many blogs so often (pretty much one to two a day).
And it's something I can't control and I fucking hate it.
I hate seeing people pretty much ignore my starters/replies. I understand if you're not online but if I see you posting and stuff and you're pretty active in general, then... It's fucking rude. It makes me think that my perspective on a canon character or my OC is shit and you don't like it, you just mutual-followed because you felt bad.
I just... I can't stand it. I can understand if someone's lurking or busy and only reblogs a meme or two, or on a semi-hiatus/hiatus. That stuff I understand to no end, believe me.
But if you aren't and you just up and ignore me...
No.
It makes me lose confidence. So I wind up gaining a new muse/switching it out for a new OC.
And it always backfires in my own ass in the end.
But it's something I can't control.
I just wish I could.
It fucking sucks.
Not just the Alice Mare fandom, either.
It's many fandoms that this happens to me.