#r+t

[perseid-haunt]

He started apologizing for shit I hadn't even thought of for months. I once got a random email where he apologized for not supporting my decision to get my tubes tied, confessed it was a control thing, and then said some feminist bullshit.

And I thought to myself wow, that left my mind! But now that you bring it up, I still don't forgive you! I despised you in that moment and I despise you now! No one should ever trust you again and I am confident you are incapable of substantial change! You useless misogynist!

It's a confessional box thing. They feel better confessing but it's for themselves, not their victims, and people like him don't get better. I know above all he wants the absolution of my forgiveness. Well I am not the Jesus Christ I was raised to be. Burn in hell.

[pigeonart]

[ID: A digital art of RT Game Daniel wearing boxing gloves, stood in a boxing ring. /end ID]

I drew Dan boxing! Inspired by his punch out video/stream.

[queenieriks]

Dù sớm hay muộn, ai rồi cũng sẽ gặp được một người như thế, không phải đầu tiên mà là cuối cùng. Người ấy có thể không đến vào một ngày nắng đẹp, mà lại đến vào một ngày mưa râm, một ngày thật buồn rồi cầm tay ta đi qua những ngày u ám như thế. Là người chỉ thuộc về riêng mình ta thôi.

[rkwxnb]

—- round two

starter for @sujirk

Against her mother’s wishes, Naeun finds herself in a different dance studio. Looking at classes that vary from jazz to contemporary and possibly even hip-hop. She promised herself, that during this gap year, she’ll make the most of it in a way to try things she hasn’t done before. That includes stepping out of her ballet shoes and maybe even into tap shoes. 

Tipping her snapback forward, trying not to draw too much attention to herself. Naeun feels a little overwhelmed and nervous in this new venture. It’s one thing going against her parents, something she’s been doing a lot recently, Naeun grimaced at that thought. But it’s completely a different one when it feels like she’s stepping into an unknown land. 

A soft sigh escapes her lips, she looks around hoping to either catch a staff’s eye or to avoid people altogether. Her gaze stops when she sees a familiar figure, an excited smile blooms, shuffling towards Suji, she taps her shoulder. “Suji-ssi, hi! it’s so great to see you after so long, how have you been?”

Her childish giddiness deteriorating a little when Naeun remembers how the other use to view her. Clearing her throat, Naeun’s smile softens, feeling a bit embarrassed by her outburst. “Hope everything is going alright on your side.” She offers gently, hoping Suji doesn’t hate her more after what just happened. 

[yukio-art]

7-day drawing challenge. I chose Tom Riddle (Harry Potter) as he’s my favourite.

Day 6. The character’s favourite thing to do.

[perseid-haunt]

I guess this is what happens after being in a relationship with someone who made you feel like every benign detail that made you You is humiliating and bad and should be erased.

[perseid-haunt]

Something I didn't predict is that immediately after leaving an abusive relationship, I would suddenly feel every hurtful thing he's ever made me feel and think of how he'd criticize and look down on everything I'm doing or thinking right now.

I think this might have to do with the enotional repression spilling out. During the relationship, at first I repressed it pretty well but then I stopped being able to do that so well and it became an intensely physical experience. And then I started really feeling the hurt and misery while trying to keep it down as much as I can.

I think now that it's over, my brain lost its incentive to try not to feel everything. And now it's actually way worse. Like really way worse. I am kind of immobilized by it. Before it was over, I was excited thinking about everything I'm going to do when it's over. But everything I do makes me feel his disdain and what he would think of me. I feel this intense, horrible shame and fear of what he thinks. I feel him stronger now than before.

I can tell I'm getting subconsciously triggered too because I'll be fine and then I'll look at some random thing in my room or whatever else and it will trigger shame so intense it makes me on the verge of vomiting.