#raaky vents

[raakxicide]

Low key want to delete my blog because I dont feel like making anything anymore lol like whats the point 😂

[raakxhyr]

Stop it already

(please, go rest)

x....x....

[raakxhyr]

In the outside I feel perfectly fine. I’m smiling and laughing at these videos I watch and I’m motivated to work

but inside I’m such a wreck. Inside I’m slamming my millionth bottle of whatever alcohol to the floor because I keep comparing myself to other people and I’ll never be like them.

I know I shouldn’t and I try to keep my head up, but I can’t help it

[raakxicide]

Today's such an off day for me. I have no motivation. I don't want to make art anymore.

[raakxhyr]

It's hard, you know, not feeling special, even when so many people tell you you are. It's like in the moment you should have been praised, you weren't. And when someone doesn't listen when you were right. Like all the amazing things you've ever done kind of flit by. It's having been deprived of it from my parents. I only get scolded and rarely praised. Like when my mom got attacked by a large german shephard. I saved her life, my brother's, and our two dogs. Not even a thank you.

[raakxhyr]

Some personal motivation because let’s just get this day over with

[raakxhyr]

I made a vent blog so you guys don’t have to deal with my shit on my main blog

it’s @raakxicide if you wanna follow it or don’t...I dunno

[raakxhyr]

Is it bad that I hate so much public pda Or maybe it's because I'm a wreck that knows no love