Rachel is a 72 year old con goer who hates herself for spending money on useless hobbies
In other news, I think I finally hit that wall so many people I know have about cosplaying and conventions. As much as I love all of the friends I’ve met and the experiences I’ve had, I cannot get over the fact that I have been so financially irresponsible the past few years when it comes to this area of my life. I’ve started to get better, but with student loans looming over my head like a horrifying spectre and my lack of feasible income (also completely my fault as I have done next to nothing to fix it), the thought of paying $100+ on rooms, badges, cosplays, etc. is just so anxiety-inducing at this point that it’s hard for me to even have fun any more.
On top of that, I’m starting to feel so old, which is ridiculous considering I’m 22 and I know people who still go to cons that are 25+. I have a wonderful group of friends who I adore seeing, but that’s become the main draw for me (aside from being a narcissist and getting photos taken and blah blah blah). I’ve never been a panels person, I do love artist alleys but that’s just spending money on other things, I am horrible at video games, and all I ever do is walk around in a circle looking for friends and hoping someone cares enough to take a hallway picture of the costume I procrastinated on and finished that day.
There are still costumes I want to do more than anything, but with all the shit that’s been happening I just foresee my con list dwindling even more than it already has in the face of becoming an adult and making financially responsible decisions.