#racherr

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I hate knowing that I have a condition and that I do t do anything for it and I try to be healthy and happy and blah blah blah but honestly sometimes I think putting myself on medication would be better... I freak out and then I'm like wtf but I'm gonna stick to my gun on my freak out I guess But what triggers me more than anything is being laughed at and being called dumb or silly or stupid.. It makes me want to fling myself off a cliff

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Missing this

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My love

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I think my tattoo is infected and I am pissed

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Update

I don’t want to be here today. I don’t want to do anything anymore. I want to get help. I want to see my husband and family. I fucking don’t want to be in my own mind.

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Finally

I think after about 3 straight weeks of being submerged into a cloud of depression I’ve seen a little bit of light today. The last three days have been so rough I’ve been tempted to harm myself multiple amount of times. I try to stay away from triggers as much as possible but of course sometimes I am the trigger myself. I’m just glad I saw a glimmer of hope today maybe again this bubble I’m in will pop for a happy period for awhile, maybe hopefully.

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Am I feeling everything today or am I feeling nothing