#radaj

[kingdomheartsnostalgia]

Sora and Kairi - Only Hope

April 14, 2006

Radaj

AMV

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I'm more used to the Switchfoot version of this song. But if it's this version of the song, I guess we can imagine Aerith providing the vocals.

[kingdomheartsnostalgia]

Kingdom Hearts II Escape

April 17, 2006

Radaj

AMV

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Love clicking based on a title expecting upbeat Relient K only to hit melancholy Muse. AMVs back then were more varied than I remember them being.

The theme of the song does have Roxas vibes. I get why it was chosen.

[kingdomheartsnostalgia]

Missing - Roxas

April 14, 2006

Radaj

AMV

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You know, I've always wanted to make a Xion video with this song. Kind of funny to see a video from the other end of the existential tug of war was made before Xion even existed. Not a bad one, either, comparatively.

[thefreelanceangel]

My doll was completed today. 

 I looked upon it and found that I could not quite believe this was to be me. In a short span of time, this flesh that I've inhabited for twenty years will be no more. I will look out of new eyes, walk with feet that have never yet been soiled by earth and feel the same odd lack of 'need' that Radaj comments on from time to time. 

 Will I still love plums as I do now? What will I do in extremes of temperature? Will I even be able to inhabit this form that was so carefully crafted? He spoke of the possibility of failure being very minimal, but still... The possibility is there. This doll could be wholly destroyed. 

 I could be wholly destroyed.

  Perhaps that should be a sobering thought. I imagine it would be for many. For I... It is simply that: a thought. One of thousands which I have turned over in moments of solitude and found to be either worthy of recording or immediately discarded. I suppose I've found it worth recording as I am writing it here. Or it is just that all of those who have taken this path before me have kept such meticulous notes. Was it to ensure some measure of themselves would remain? Was it a warning to those who would follow? A lesson?

 Having read the notes of those prior save Hayate's- he will permit no one, not even I, to look into his journals- I can quite honestly state that there's nothing to be gleaned from them. It is all talk of doing one's duty to the family, of honour and personal sacrifice. None of them, it seems, have ever had an individual thought they were courageous enough to pen.

 I wonder now what it is they did not write. We were taught that there can be no regrets. Hayate before me and I after were given all the license one could imagine, allowed to indulge any whim, held back from nothing that could not be made safe for us. Anything I have desired has been mine upon my word, and there is not a tumble in my life I can recall that did not result in half of my family flying to coo over whatever small hurt was suffered. 

 I write of these things. I write of the dreams which recur over and over again. Of the fear that I will not face the blade as I know I should. Of wondering what, if anything, will come beyond that night, and of the fact that I know it will be a difficult farewell prior. Radaj does not wish to be present, and Hayate and Toshikazu have not yet told me whom it is that will be my officiator.

  Are we all feeling the same fear of 'what is to come' that we have begun to retreat from each other? Perhaps this is why the entries of my predecessors became stilted and scarce when their time drew near. I understand the idea of 'distance yourself so that you will feel less pain' but at the same time...

 They are the entire reason I will undertake this. I want to be reminded of why I love them. Of why it is that I want to know they will succeed, why it is that I think fondly of them even when I come to light the incense in honour of those who have gone before me.

  ...I've time left. I will be reminded.

[thefreelanceangel]

 Just another night with the Kurosawa family.