#rainbowsmudge

[rainbowsmudge]

I haven't used tumblr in two or three years? Sometimes I miss it and sometimes I feel like I'm too different to go back to the same kinds of things but hi dash, this is who-ish I am now. Farewell for another two years?

[rainbowsmudge]

guys I'm growing up (and I found wifi)

[rainbowsmudge]

I need to know now can you love me again

[rainbowsmudge]

January 18th, 2016

You’re sleeping your life away. The last week you’ve slept 12-18 hours each night. You sleep through your nights off. That’s forbidden.

You’re 24 years old, start living.

Stop using Tinder and start meeting people. Go out with friends. Go out on your own. Start conversations. End them, need be.

Eat healthy. Doesn’t have to include all food groups, but shouldn't be a portion for three. Don’t starve. I know you’re about to, but we don’t want to go down that road again. We can’t afford to.

Stop worrying about your thighs, your rolls, the extra bits. Start focusing on the walls you need to bring down. There are many.

Ask for help, if completely necessary. The right people will be there. The wrong ones won’t, and that will hurt. But you don’t need them.

Be careful. You need someone.

[rainbowsmudge]

So hi guys.

There's a combination of reasons and not reasons for why I haven't been active on tumblr the last few months.

Things were getting out of my control in my life for a while, so I put it on the back burner for a bit so I could get my shit together.

And to be completely honest, I haven't gotten it together quite yet.

But I want to start being more active on here and keeping up with you guys.

So if I post frequently for a while and then drift away, it's just me getting squared away with my emotions.

I know I probably shouldn't even bother posting something along these lines cause wtf man it's just tumblr but. I don't know. Felt like I should say something instead of just lurking around the shadows and being like 'oh hey guys kinda back but let's ignore the time I ignored you okay cool'.

Ok bye.

[rainbowsmudge]

guys it's my birthday

[rainbowsmudge]

I JUST HIT 500 FOLLOWERS

And I am too busy to properly say thank you but THANK YOU GUYS 💋💕

[rainbowsmudge]

Also sorry for having a barren account the last few days

Life home has been hectic so I didn’t create a proper queue and now I’m using all my data on maps during the day and I don’t have time to scroll around but please trust I am having the time of my mother fucking life here in Montréal.

Bless you all.