not an anniversary celebration, but a rewatch one! yesterday i rewatched the complex and twisting roads’ iterator log and was spurred with a creativity i’d been having trouble rekindling given recent struggle. i’ve been understanding a resurfaced anxiety recently, and this helped me focus and reflect. i also just wanted to practice quickly sketching something i was listening/watching, but passion told a hold of me here. i made sure to include every single character from the complex! though for the full credits list check the description of the video itself.
i have several dozen videos of myself almost serving as a timeline to the piece’s creation, mostly with me geeking out over new discoveries like how the chimeras could’ve been a metaphor for tr and att’s already strained relationship, the recognizing of artists i was familiar with, and generally reconnecting with a piece of media that’s changed my life.
this video did a lot to me, chat. especially with the expansion given by tr’s log. there’s a reason he’s a permanent comfort character with a randomly surging hyperfixation wave, and i’m not quite sure why but it hit harder on this rewatch.
speaking of metaphor, there’s a few in here! specifically surrounding tr’s dependance on the all-father model, his general vulnerability, and the final silencing given by the infiltrator. he’s not happy here. and its fascinating how the primary subject—the figure holding the most authority and priority here—has their emotional state control the entire tone. the page opposite to roads’ is actually quite comedic! its just sad because he’s sad. it’s interesting… im noting my findings though, don’t mind me
christmas was a hard time this year for me, being split into those two aforementioned moods of comedy and turmoil. family relationships have gotten confusing as of late making communication and toleration hard! yike! but i wanted to share my piece of yesterday as a final effort to reflect on the clarity i experienced yesterday, and the comfort it brings me now.
i’m glad we’ve all made it this far 💛 this year was both kinda ass for me but also delivered a definition of whimsy i’m happy to have achieved.