#rallya

[agentjoannemills]

so where are we at processing how tally and the rest of the team believes raelle and abigail died in that place? and therefore so will anacostia, and so will scylla???

where are we at coping with the idea of scylla thinking about how their last moments together were raelle telling her she’s sorry they ever met? how scylla didn’t get a chance to prove to raelle how much she loves her still, how she doesn’t regret even one second of knowing her because she’s raelle and she’s the sun in scylla’s life, the only one left worth living for?

how are we dealing with the idea of tally thinking she lost her two best friends in one go, helpless as she gets farther and farther away from their corpses and fuck those are her sisters, her sisters, killed in the line of duty and she’s not with them, she’s not with them like she’s supposed to be—

how crushed would anacostia be, thinking of her students who were so promising, brimming with raw power and so much potential, gone too soon while she’s stuck unable to help them? what if she tried to accompany them? what if she’s strong enough to stand up to alder and tell her off for sending her students away to die—for they are her students, her kids—raelle and her brash aloofness and bleeding heart and abigail with more honour and dignity than the entire damn bellweather line combined—and fuck she’ll never forgive herself because she could have helped them, she could have saved them—

so how are we folks

[agentjoannemills]

smooth, private collar.

[agentjoannemills]

canon stills from s01e08

[agentjoannemills]

i know scylla effectively killed more than a thousand civilians in one go, in the first episode alone, but like. i love her. i love the angst her character can bring and will bring to the table. the long road to redemption. the potential for mutual longing. raelle will have to hold onto her morality, and her forgiveness won’t be so easily earned. scylla’s redemption will be long and arduous and full of deep-seated regret.

raelle may come to believe in scylla again, but there will always be that tendril of fear that scylla would again betray her, and scylla will have to live with that. raelle has always been willing to die, but she’s not in it to kill, and she has to come to terms with the fact that the love of her life did kill a lot of people. there’s a lot of blood in scylla’s hands, and raelle knows she doesn’t have the right to wash that blood away — she’s a fixer but this is the one thing she cannot fix.

and through all this there’s the fact that through all the pain and betrayal, they do love each other. that’s the one truth scylla has to offer: she loves raelle, and maybe in time, raelle will believe that. but that belief doesn’t come with forgiveness, and the distance between them will seem so insurmountable. not because of the lack of love — that has never been their problem — but because of the broken trust. the trust that scylla broke herself.

scylla has a lot to answer for. she’s flawed and she’s done reprehensible things. she truly believes in the cause, she was ready to do her job, but she didn’t expect raelle to come crashing through her walls like a furious comet. there’s a lot to unpack in her psyche. she’s got a long road to walk in her atonement.

i know she’s a villain but i just really love her.

[agentjoannemills]

raelle is a Soft Drunk