~ Late Night Thoughts ~
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Loly lay on her bed, very much awake and unable to sleep. Soft moonlight shone through the lone window of her room, the shadows making the room much larger than it really was. Sighing, she rolled over to face the wall in frustration. It was late, and she was bored. Her mind reeled at the stillness of the air. The lack of noise made her uneasy as she shifted her position.
Thoughts began to come to the forefront of her mind. It was silent, and it made her feel terribly lonely.
Brown hair drifted in her thoughts, reminding her of how easily Aizen-sama could dismiss her. Her body curled into itself, unnoticed even by herself. The brown was soon overtaken by blonde, accompanied by an evergreen hue she knew all too well. The blonde girl was always there, no matter how many times she was hurt by her hand, she stayed at her side. Much like she did with her Lord, even if she hadn’t seen him in quite some time.
Her knuckles had turned white as they gripped her sheets. Dismissed because she weak. Cast aside. Overlooked. She was strong, but not strong enough. May never be strong enough. It made her terribly angry. The fury inside at her weakness was very real. It ate away at her if she didn’t embrace it. It was all she knew, and she took her power from this feeling. There was simply no other way for her. All it did was ring in her mind as exhaustion slowly drained her into a fitful sleep.
Weak. Harlot. Dog. Pathetic.
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