There are some stuff in my mind lately. Don’t worry, it’s positive.
I was thinking of these some days ago but listening some song triggered some memories from last summer and my horrible autumn. But I couldn′t help but smile because I can see the difference between those times and times now. I’m still not the woman I decided to be some months ago, but I’m getting closer each day.
I know what should I improve and what bad habits should I stop but for now I’m just happy I learnt how important it is to put myself first and think for myself. You know, tobe the protagonist of my own life. Mabe it’s not that noticeable from the outside, but I learnt it’s okay to say no and I shouldn’t feel guilty when I do something for my own good. Maybe I became distant with people but now that I don’t feel it necessary to be open with everyone, I’m much happier than before.
Yeah maybe it felt horrible when I had to leave the mhgw rp group and some friendship went to waste, I guess they were one of those butterfly effect. I needed those to finally see what’s good for me. I stood up to finally find my way.
It’s kinda funny that I met metal gear rising at that time. No wonders why did I fell love with Blade Wolf so quickly, he just encouraged me to go on my own way. Also Raiden, showed me that I have to keep fighting for my goals.
So... I guess I can say that I’m proud of myself. Last year I couldn’t even imagine that I’d be this optimist and I’d ejnoy my life.
Now I just need to work on my motivation to finish the university, because that’s something worrying right now :’D