#random saddness

[envy-bunny]

I can't be the only one who sits at home or in the car and just randomly feels.like cry for no apparent reason

[unbrokenfairytaleendings]

i am so damn confused!

i am so happy with him, don't get me wrong. but it's like everytime we go like 2 days without talking, i feel like i'm just bothering him. and even though he says that i'm not, i still feel like i am..

and it really kinda bothers me that we don't talk everyday. i like attention. that's what i need in a relationship. and trust me, i get plenty of attention when we're together, it's like he's all i pay attention to, and he's all i pay attention to.

but right now.. i feel like we're just going to argue, and i feel like i'm bothering him, but somehow it's as if i'm trying to push him away.. what do ya know? the one thing that i'm famous for -- pushing people away.

ugh! i don't want to lose him! i'm so scared that i'm going to lose him, that i can barely sleep at night... i have such restless nights, but i guess that i really do have something to worry about... it's not like i'm pretty. i'm easily replaced.

it's not like he couldn't have another woman whenever he wanted to. he could do so much better than me... idk i guess i will just go do some puzzles until i fall asleep again... goodnight..