A quick update.
It’s been a year and a half. Dammit. I lost my touch in writing. Even now I’m struggling to write something. Pathetic.. Maybe. I’ve been toooo long doing just fine on the sideline of life. Slowly turning into a mindless thing that I fear most three years ago. And also, tumblr banned in Indonesia. That’s just helps me justify my absence. But anyway. Here I am. In the flesh. Mostly.
Welcome to adulthood, my friend.
Where every day is a constant struggle between responsibilities and selfishness.
Yeah yeah I know. I’m turning into a broken radio. Year after year it’s the same thing to whine and write for me. The point is. Life sucks. And everybody knows it. But that doesn’t mean it’s meaningless. You just have to cling to little things that gave you strength throughout the day. And I pull it through.
In span of year and a half. I’m only had two unexpected mental breakdown. All two of it still because death of someone. The first one with the death of Anthony Bourdain by apparent suicide and the last one with the death of my work colleague, killed by a robber. The latter hits me deep. It’s unthinkable and came down by surprise. I’m the last one to leave the grave and in that moment I wept uncontrollably. It’s embarassing, I know. But it’s just sad.
Well.... That’s escalated quickly...
Everything aside. I know. I’m still growing as a person.
That’s all I have left in my mind now. I’ll be sure to write more things from now on. And also I need to remind myself to write more on my Schrodinger short story. It’s kinda good to be back :)))