I feel sooooo tame and domesticated. I feel like I'm living in captivity. I'm not in my natural environment. I miss nighttime. I miss being awake and walking around at night. It's almost 10:30, which is way past the time I should be in bed if I'm going to get the Right Amount of sleep for work. I feel so much despair about that. I used to be up until the sun rose every night. I used to roam around my college campus every night, when almost no one else was out and it was quiet and pleasant and I had so much time and space just for me.
Before that, I would run through the woods at night, or through fields, or wherever I wanted to go. I would stay up all night on the desktop computer in my living room, or reading a book on the couch, or pacing around the kitchen, or whatever I wanted.
Now I have to go to work, so I have to go to bed. I miss nighttime. I miss having a little space and time. I wish I didn't need to sleep at all.