“Why are you lying to me?”
𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐘𝐍 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐀𝐍 𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐍 𝐁𝐎𝐎𝐊 which was the most annoying thing in the entire GALAXY at times. sometimes she just didn’t want to speak about her feelings & when she meant sometimes she meant NEVER. she had never been that sort of PERSON to open up, to rant about her feelings about everything. everyone else could do that if they FOUND that effective but she herself PREFERRED to keep quiet about her worries. especially now, when it wasn’t herself she was worried about. the child that was GROWING in her stomach, that was her concerns.
gaze left the woman in front of her to take in the SIGHT of the large bump that had replaced her SLENDER form. at night she heard the voice, the VOICE of something evil. trying to MANIPULATE her to leave her baby, telling her how he’ll spread DARKNESS across the galaxy just like his grandfather once had. VADER the name made her shiver. she was the DAUGHTER of the vilest of man. if even an OUNCE of his darkness was in her, it would be in her son. when she had found out she was happy, THRILLED to finally have her chance of a family. teach her child everything about ALDERAAN & the galaxy but now all she was feeling was FEAR and despise.
how could she DESPISE her own child? shame washed over her INSTANTLY, those thoughts should never FILL a mother’s head but that was the real thing wasn’t it? she never ASKED for this, she never asked to be a MOTHER. no one understood that though. a CHILD was a miracle, something to be TREASURED. her best friend thought so at least. not having amilyn understand hurt more than anything she had gone THROUGH. she was hunted by that voice though, the voice that spoke with such HATRED towards her. he’d take her child, he’d USE it as his own little weapon & she’d not be able to STOP him.
❛ because you don’t understand ❜ tones was EMOTIONLESS while her gaze was STUCK on the floor. her best friend was never going to understand so there was no reason to even try to EXPLAIN. she had to shut her out, for the first time in her life she had to shut her best friend out of her LIFE, out of her feelings because amilyn would never UNDERSTAND the thoughts that were in her head. how SCARED she was for the future. ❛ you’ll never understand what i’m feeling, what i’m going through ❜ eyes stung with TEARS, jaw clenching slightly while she SHOOK her head. slowly getting up from her seat, frustrated sigh LEAVING her. everything hurt, every bone in her BODY. she wanted it to end, she wanted to have her own MIND again. ❛ just go amilyn, i don’t want you here ❜
