“Honestly, I can't fully relate to what you're going through,”
Oh, just imagine that the person you love keeps pushing you away even if you’re already crying in front of him. He once said that he wants to get this fixed, but he isn’t doing anything to make it work. He wouldn’t say he loves you, unless you ask him if he does. He wouldn’t talk to you, unless you’re the first one to. You can’t see each other, unless you’re always the one who makes a way to see him. You’re always the one who makes everything work kahit hirap na hirap ka na. Imagine waiting outside of his house for hours until it gets dark.. waiting for him to go home and see you pero wala kang makikita ni anino nya. And by the time you got home, magtetext sya na kakauwi niya lang. Yun pala, hinintay ka lang niya na umalis bago siya pumasok ng bahay nila. Imagine saying that you’re going to call him because you want to talk to him and you really miss him.. but he refuses to. Magpapalusot na inaantok na o malolowbat na siya, pero ayaw lang talaga niyang makausap ka. And you can’t do anything but to surpress your face on the pillow just so no one can hear you crying. Imagine waiting everyday just for him to remember you, pero wala kang matatanggap na kahit ano.. You begged, threw your dignity, cried, constantly saying sorry, that you don’t want to end your relationship, that you really love him.. but what you get is an emotionless face.. saying, he doesn’t need you anymore. After waiting months for him to go back kasi bigla na lang siyang di nagparamdam, he suddenly went back to make you feel loved again for a while, but the truth is he went back just to break you again. Imagine waiting for him to answer you… and you just stare blankly at the tiny screen, hoping that his name would pop up and finally solve things out with you.. pero wala na. Di mo alam na umalis na pala siya… Kung san siya pumunta? Kahit saan.. hindi ko alam... basta malayo sakin.