Yesterday my professor of epistemology told me, “You see the walls that most people don’t know about and notice…ever and you’re still young. You see them and how things connect and disconnect yet you still keep climbing up the walls even though you know you can’t tear them down.” I told her most things disconnect and that I see the old and new pieces in front of me that gives me an adrenaline rush because I get to construct the pieces I choose and wield them together to create the person I aim to become. In order to have more pieces and increase the probability of becoming her, my future self, I must understand and learn to take on various viewpoints so I can change the lenses I wear to see the world and actually do acts of compassion even if I reject some people's shitty views. She tried to tell me to avoid reading Russell again and said he changes his mind a lot. I said, “but I change my mind a lot too so it works out.” I must continue reading and writing except I need to push myself to do more than I am so I understand the reasons of why some philosophers held particular views that are quite disagreeable. I just want to flourish in knowledge of all subjects and have others around me who want to thrive too so we can all flourish together.
Okay I should get back to reading about science and free will to write this papers.