Don’t make me do this . (please just live) Blade x reader.
TIME FOR ANGST!Also , Reader is immortal.
Please don’t leave .
Blade has always been a human , just with a curse . You’ve always known that . You’ve never judged him like others and continued to help him .
Yet.
He continues to call himself a weapon.
( It hurts your heart)
YingXing is still there . You know it.
But you there’s no evidence of him . The once pure white hair turned into a dark blue with a fading red with the sweet personality turned cold . The only thing left is the emotions he still carries . However , blade still denies them and continues to seek death to end his suffering.
( Can’t he see how he’ll break you if he does leave?)
You can’t bear it . You know that Blade loved another and is currently seeking his reincarnation in order to die .
(He fails to see how he deserves to live.)
Yes, he may have broken a law in the Luofu, yes he may be partially Mara-struck . Yes , he may have ba billon dollar bounty on him .
But .
That still doesn’t say anything about him . People judge too quickly . They listen to the law .
However, they fail to feel the pain others experience. They say they won’t ever do the things other outlaws have done .
( But when the situation arrives , committing a crime seems so much more reasonable now .)
They’re hypocrites. The only reason why you understand is because you’ve felt pain before . You’ve felt the temptation of breaking the rules and attempting to revive someone , to kill someone .
That’s why you want Blade to live. You want to turn him back into Yingxing . However,
Blade has already made a deal with Elio . You wish he hadn’t, because now he’s destined to die . You want him to live.
It’s selfish , you know , but how can you not? You’ve been there with YingXing and Blade . You’ve seen everything .
(It breaks your soul to see him so intent on dying.)
So , when you realize you’re incorporated into the script . You’d think , maybe Blade would get to live and turn into YingXing again .
Maybe , the death Elio promised was the Death of Blade and the awakening of YingXing again .
But .
That’s not the case .
You’re his executioner .
When you realize this , a glass sheen of water is on your eyes .
Why.
Whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy.
WHY?!
You never wanted this . You never even wanted him to die! The only reason why you followed him everywhere was to try convince him to live!
You drop your weapon , and start to cry . In midst of your crying . You only know one solution to the problem you’re facing .
Run away from blade .
So you do , you run across the universe , as if death is coming for you . In a way it is though .
( Because if Blade dies then it’d break your soul )
Elio’s scripts are set in the stars , so if you run from Blade no matter what , he won’t die and he’ll finally see what the universe is like and how lovely it is .
You have this game for a few centuries , since you’re part of the Luofu , you’re immortal . Another way Elio’s script is set in stone .
You run for your life everyday . Jumping planet to planet , galaxy to galaxy .
So when you arrive at the next destination. You don’t expect Kafka and Sam there , looking like they’ve been waiting for a long time .
You run away from them as fast as you can , trying to find another rift that can teleport you away .
“ Dear , please , stop running .” Kafka tries to convince you before resorting to her spirit whisper .
You don’t listen and put on headphones and blast it loud . How ironic , the music is Runaway . You start to cry . At least he would be safe even though it breaks your heart to leave YingXing .
Yingxing, yes Yingxing . You almost forgot why you were running . This was for him . The sweet boy who would care for you .
How ironic . You’re running from him now .
Your dear lover .
What you’d give to see him smile and hug you again . Just to share some of your warmth with him .
You miss your lover .
Tears start pouring from your eyes . Why did fate have to give him such a cruel life .
( You would’ve gladly taken it if it meant he would be happy )
Soon , you escape the Stellaron hunters and then sit at a cave . Curling up in a corner , wishing Yingxing was there with you .
When you were cold he would offer a blanket , if he didn’t have one he would cuddle you and keep you warm .
You wish life wasn’t so cruel to him .
You wish for a lot of things actually .
Most of all , you wish Yingxing would live for himself and not for Elio’s script.
While you sit there , you don’t realize a man stepping towards you . You look up thinking it was just someone that noticed you and thought you were lost .
it wasn’t a stranger . In fact, it was someone you knew pretty well .
General of the cloud knights .
Jing Yuan .
He takes you away without another word and makes the cloud knights through you in a prison.
You thought this would be a good idea since it would keep Blade away from you .
What you didn’t expect was Blade in prison in the same cell as you .
You back away instantly. You then make sure there was no weapons around you and that your hands and feet were throughly restrained .
(It may hurt but at least you wouldn’t hurt him .)
He stares at you .
You stare at him .
Without another word he breaks his bindings and walks towards you .
Realizing what he’s planning to do you crawl away and huddle up .
However , your assumption is wrong.
Instead of breaking you free and forcing you to kill him , he just kneels down and cradles you against his figure .
You start to sob. The embrace he gives you feels so similar to Yingxing’s embrace .
( It makes your heart throb )
He stays silent and rocks you back and forth , as if it was second nature .
( The mind can forget but the subconscious and body won’t)
Soon , you tire . You can’t keep running and can’t keep trying to avoid him pretending your feelings don’t exist.
As soon as you fall asleep , he says this .
“ I’m sorry , for not being Yingxing, but I’ll do my best as Blade.”
