Blessed the Ones Who Believe but Have not Seen
Wow, it’s been a while, but I have a lot to talk about, so let’s get started! ‘
This week’s readings had to deal with trusting in God and his power. I was left to ponder on trusting God. Many times, I feel God doesn’t prove he is there to me. There are things science can’t explain, but none of that has every been to me and I know “blessed are they that have not seen, and yet believed” (John 20:29 KJV), but it’s hard. What if I am a person who needs to see to believe. I need to know someone is there. He created me, but how to do I know He is still there? I have never before in my life pondered his existence until I was faced with a storm.
I say a storm because in the gospel this week, we see Jesus walking on water and the disciples thought he was a ghost. Peter asked Jesus to prove it was him and he told Peter to come and Peter began to walk on water. He walked on water as long as he focused on Jesus. The moment he looked away, he began to sink. Storms were the enemy to them back in this time, there was nothing scarier and more unpredictable to them, but here was Jesus proclaiming Himself as more powerful than the storms. He transcends Earth.
Back to the point, I had a storm. I took my eyes off God and I am still waiting for him to pull me up from sinking. I am trying to float, but I still can’t. I am trying to believe, but there is so much questioning inside me. It’s frustrating. I want to believe. I want to believe and have not seen, but how do I get there?
I am starting with a new book called Rediscover Jesus. I read a chapter a day (over 40 days), and reflect on what the chapter has to say. The first chapter is about new beginnings and that’s what it is. Me starting a new beginning and rekindling my relationship with my faith. There’s never a wrong time to start new again. So here’s to a new beginning and learning to trust that God is there.
