TASK OO2 — BURNT FiLM
Her ‘Happiest’ Moment
Diary Entry #28.
( tw: incest )
i've not been doing very well with these diary entries. but today is a day i don't want to forget. and, since it's been a while since i wrote my thoughts down, i'd love to have the events of today written down.
idris woke me up early today. today was the last day solomon would be with us for a while, and our parents were finally letting all of us go out together. they were being pretty adamant on not letting idris or solomon near one another, but i managed to convince them they wouldn't do anything weird with me around. and, of course, i was right. i knew first hand that they weren't interested in involving me in their affairs.
anyway. they took me out. in the morning, they showed me some of the coolest areas in town. apparently, this was where those so-called 'gangs' would hang out. their headquarters. some of them looked elite, others were run down. crazy to think one day, i'd be running one of those headquarters.
well, after the morning was over, we went to get some food. solomon treated us girls to a fancy dinner. i'm going to be honest, i doubt anyone will ever get their hands on this, so it doesn't matter. i kind of felt like a third-wheel. i didn't speak much during the meal, i understood that this was their moment. i even went to the bathroom a few times, to give them some alone time, i think they appreciated that. i'm sure they knew i was doing it on purpose, they realised after the third time, i'm sure.
they have.. a beautiful forbidden relationship. though it's a shameful one. if a book was written about their love story, i doubt anyone would be defending their love for one another. more readers would be looking down on their mental instability. i had time to think about that in the bathroom.
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it was late at night. and solomon was the only one awake. he sat in front of the tv, staring at it's blackness. nothing good was on at this time. he was distracted. thinking about her. upon hearing footsteps, he concentrated again. he turned his head towards the sound.
" idris? " he whispered, but ended up facing his other younger sister. jezebel.
without any more words exchanged, she sat next to him, resting her head on her shoulder. she couldn't sleep. poor thing.
after half an hour of laying in front of the tv, jesse finally spoke.
" mom and dad are asleep. i can't sleep without a goodnight kiss... " as she spoke, he knew where she was going with her words. a chuckle escaped his lips as he leaned down, pressing his lips against her cheeks, surprised when she suddenly grabbed his face, going to kiss his... lips?
" what the fuck?! " he raised his voice, eyeing his youngest siblings with big, wide eyes.
" oh-- um, i'm sorry, i- i just saw you and elija- "
" idris. " he quickly interrupted her, correcting her. so she did know. fuck, fuck. their parents were going to find out, too. " jesse, just go to bed, okay? "
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so.. let's forget about my bathroom thoughts and memories... after eating we just played around. my brother had a lot of stories to share about america. it sounds really cool and i'd love to go.
but, now for what i really wanted to write about, when idris, not elijah, left. don't get me wrong, i love my sister, but i'll never forget the words my brother told me that night. it may just seem like a conversation between two siblings, but you have no idea how good it feels to be praised by the person you look up to most. very cool.
i'm going to write what he said specifically, everything i remember. as i said; this is something i --never want to forget--.
of course, between the time idris left and solomon began praising me, there was quite some time. him mumbling about her being out there with another man and me reassuring him it was just for money. we both knew that wasn't true-, after the 'visit' to america, our financial status had improved. drastically. anyway, that doesn't matter. he ended up smoking some drugs or whatever. he was high and i felt oddly reassured by that. solomon was usually honest with me, but when he was out of it, he told me e v e r y t h i n g-.
" one day you're gonna rule the world. " he seemed to speak absentmindedly, i wasn't really sure if he was speaking to me at first. so, i chuckled and that's when he turned his head. " hey, why are you laughing? it's true. "
" i doubt it, sol... " i said, being as humble as ever.
"well, i don't. in you and that girlfriend of yours, i see potential. you'll do something big. together. " he took another puff of his smoke stick thing.
" she's not... i don't even know if she's into gir-- " " oh, come on, jesse! she's more into women than dad. and, trust me, that's saying a lot. she's gay, especially for you. "
i only stared at him. 'i don't want to talk about it' written all over my face. he got the picture, thankfully.
" seriously, the way you dealt with that first murder, it was --incredible-- better than any of the men i work with in the states. "
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jezebel had just watched her brother kill a man. she wasn't fazed. not even a little bit, but when she locked eyes with her brother. she realised; it was normal. to feel this way. it was just another death, caused by her sibling. she felt a deep desire inside her chest. she wanted to kill someone. she did kill someone.
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" --breathtaking. " i can't remember what he said then, but something took someone's breath away.
" that's nice. " and i thought it was nice.. if only i could remember. solomon laughed at my response.
" goku is seriously proud of ya, jesse. he looked me straight into my eyes, finally. --this-- is what i was talking about. these words i heard. they're what i live by. i will accomplish them and live up to the expectation.
" you're going to be the leader of the first all-girl gang in seoul. i see it. you'd make the best leader. you could control all your little minions effortlessly. "
— format explained; first person = diary, third person = memory. i actually wantedt to add many more memories, because this was her happiest memory because for the first time, jezebel was able to look back on her life and not regret it. it was an experience with her brother she would never forget. i ended up doing it last minute though and didn’t have enough time.
— goku is her father (real name gok kun); idris and elijah are the same persn (in case that wasn’t incredibly obvious)
— I CANT ADD A PICTURE AND I DON’T KNOW WHY SO I APOLOGISE FOR THAT
— sorry it’s bad (LOL)
