Dear mom
Can you see me now? What do you think? Am I trying hard enough? Are you proud of me? ... I haven't had The Nightmare for a week now. It's hard. When it's not that one, it's one about you, and I think that hurts even more. ... I don't remember what it's like to dream about something normal, and it doesn't even bother me anymore how often I wake up crying. Is that sad?
The Captain is really great. I've had a really weird mix of emotions over him. When I first saw him ... do you remember how I talked about him a lot? When I met him, I was a little disappointed. And a little scared. I mean, he kicked the crap out of me, but I understand why he did. ( I hope you do, too. ) But once again, it's rounded back to him being a hero. Amazing. He takes great care of me. But I think he needs someone to return the favor. He has nightmares, too. ... I can't imagine what his must be like.
... Enough about me. I'm sure you're entirely caught up anyway, huh? What's ... what's it like, up there? Is it as nice as we talked about when we found the dead bird?
I love you. And I miss you, Eren