My Battery, Spoons, and HP Key
This is the key to the battery, spoons, and HP bar icon on my full blog and what they signify for me. (A link to this post is also found on my full blog.)
Battery - This is my energy for socialization. I chose this because it had the most restricted options and usually my socialization bar is pretty high. However, I may still post things on here even if the battery is 0% since posting doesn’t take energy like actually messaging people does. This tracks socialization need/interest purely.
0% - Talking to others in any way, shape, or form (no matter how short or brief) is as appealing as biting my own arm off. In fact, biting my arm off is far more desirable. I usually chill with Netflix, daydream, read something, or do art. Anything away from tumblr or IM or social media sites. (Even if I have a high spoons and HP bar.) 25% - Low socialization need. Not wanting to talk other than an occasional message here or there, but I'll still read the messages. Maybe if I get a bit higher then I'm up for further and engaging chatting. Not so good on helping with emotional troubles and will need to sacrifice a couple spoons to do so, but I'll manage for my friends in need. 50% - Good socialization need. Happy to chat and message and might be into a TW too if my spoons and HP bar are also high enough. Can help with emotional troubles and give advice. Takes a spoon out of me but I can manage well enough. :) Just need to rest a lot tomorrow (i.e. usually won't talk much if at all tomorrow). 75% - High socialization need. Loving to joke and chat and will often spend a lot of time seeking it out from others. Helping with emotional issues or giving advice takes very little out of me and I am very interested in a TW or RP (see spoons and HP bar for whether I can actually do it, however. Ask in case.) 100% - Rare to get. When I'm absolutely desperate for socialization and talking. If I'm at this point even if I'm low on spoons and HP bar (as long as those aren't 0% or too close to it) then I will say "fuck everything else, let's do a TW/RP, please!" Or I may be silently wanting to say it but nervous about the reaction.
Spoons - This is my overall spoons that I have that day or moment. This includes the spoons used for socialization, mental work, physical movement, and emotional intensity. This tracks how close to "done" I am for that particular day.
Yes, it is indeed crummy that even on a good day my spoons tend to be so restricted like this. Spoons for physical movement does not translate into spoons for socialization, or mental work, or even emotional intensity, and vice versa. Unless I’m in a crash or near to one, then all the spoons drain out of every area into the physical movement area as an emergency method for pure survival. That always sucks.
HP Bar - This is my overall level of exhaustion and fatigue. This includes mental exhaustion too, but socialization needs can be independent of mental exhaustion which is why I made that separate. It is also my physical health at the moment. This tracks how my overall recovery from a previous crash is going, day by day, week by week.
0% is the worst of my crash. 0 to 30% is my crash. Before, during, and after. 50% is me feeling crummy. I don’t want to do much, sitting up is not my friend, but I’m managing. 35 to 70% is my active recovering from a crash stage. 80% and higher is usually needed for RP or TW. It’s when I feel the most “normal” and can do something more intensive without a risk of backsliding. 100% is my normal (where I can go out and do one thing today) and not have to do much other than take it easy tomorrow. (Unless I'm an idiot and went over my limits and caused yet another crash.)
I will try to keep this updated daily but we’ll see. I’ll have to be on tumblr in order to do so, lol.
