'why do you even like him tho? i dont get it'
imagine youre young (ish) (okay, not that young)
and you've been struggling with shit for years and sometimes feel invisible and don't really know what you're doing and don't think you can do much or even really matter to most people
and then someone you deeply admire (that youve been avoiding for years so as not to disappoint them) goes out of their way to meet you and then shows you more kindness than the people that are around you on a regular basis... and they see you and keep going out of their way to not only acknowledge but appreciate you whenever they get a chance... especially when you barely bother going out of your way for YOURSELF?
wouldn't you like them and feel so much gratitude that they popped into your life when you didn't feel worthy?