#relationship junk

[baby-jackalope]

went through another kinda shitty “what are we” experience and man I just really hate being the one person who goes “hey! i appreciate ur company and enjoy spending time with u!” only to usually be met with “haha same but you know were not in a relationship right?? I don’t want to confront the possibility of commitment, relationship obligations or possibly opening myself up to someone else at this time even though i made you believe I thought you were special and beautiful when u actually wanted to fuck me.” c’est la fucking vie.

it’s getting harder day by day trying to convince myself people dont just want to date me because im short with nice tits. if that’s my only appeal then i guess ive really failed in developing a personality. I just can’t understand how you can share so many special moments and experiences with another person, tell the person they make you feel like nothing they’ve ever felt

and then just like

clarify that ur not trying to pursue a relationship at all actually and only desired a friends with benefits situation from me. that hurts in a way i cant really describe, i dunno.

why cant i meet a boy who wants to see me just as often as I’d like to see him, or cares about me as much as i do about him. a boy who wants to impress ME for once, rather than it only being the other way around.I want a guy who cares about me enough to remember my favorite snacks, a guy who’s smile lights up  when i text him back because he’s excited to see me next, just like i would be.I want someone who will send me witty memes and will let me be my true self around them. I hate it hate hate it how much I’ve been thinking of Aaron and how much i miss how secure, just how safe i felt in his arms. i remember laying in the darkness after making love and just listening to his heart beat from his chest. i miss talking about scattered, complex issues i care about and having someone understand what im trying to say, or someone who wants to understand what I’m trying to say. I miss being loved by someone, unconditionally, I miss that safety so much. I miss having a favorite person. To kiss and cuddle but also watch shows and movies, talk about anime or our pasts. 

Someone I could call to say good night.

[manly-misadventures]

My polyamory

I’m poly because I love people. I’m poly because I understand one person can’t always fulfill everything a partner may need I’m poly because I understand that more for my partner doesn’t mean less for me I’m poly because I believe love is not something that exists in a preset amount I’m poly because I love sharing my love with others I’m poly because I know people’s living situations may change, distances may change, and poly(for me at least) make long distance relationships feel less physically lonely I’m poly because I’m greyace and I don’t feel pressured to have sex if I don’t want to I’m poly because it’s what’s healthiest for my definition of a relationship, it’s most comfortable for me. And just because I’m poly doesn’t mean I haven’t experienced minor anxiety when one of my partners gets a new partner, it doesn’t mean I haven’t felt jealous at one time or another. It does mean that when I feel like this I bring it up to my partner, discuss why I feel this way, and work it out on a constructive manner. Polyamory isn’t perfect, polyamory isn’t for everyone. However this doesn’t mean monogamy is perfect either. People are so vastly complex. Some people like having their relationship open, allowing new sexual or emotional experiences in. And some people are more comfortable being the only one their partner expresses those types of feelings for. I will never say my life is how everyone should live. It works for me but won’t work for everyone. And that’s ok.

[cowgalfemme]

Not to be the five millionth person to say this, but if a relationship (romantic or friendship) isn’t serving you, end it.

Not sure if you want it more than it troubles you? Take a break until you can tell for sure. You’d be shocked at how often a month of low contact while working or studying or being invested in a project will show you there are other ways you’d rather spend your time.

Not sure if you should “do the mature thing” and talk through things or try and work it out? Imagine trying to give advice to someone else in your shoes. What would you say? Would you tell this person that the other person seems like a really valuable friend/partner who is capable of changing and growing rn? Or is there a pattern of them disregarding needs, or promising change and never following through? The real mature thing is recognizing the reality of the situation and doing what is right for you.

[feraladhdsouschef]

Okay so I reasoned my way out of my anxiety paradox. I know my guy wouldn't suddenly change his tune suddenly like that, especially after talking for a month and giving me his word he wouldnt just ghost. Now I'm just bored and missing him a ton though.

[starrylamb]

I’ve got some exciting news um,  so when I moved up to Orlando I asked my bf if he wanted to get a place and he declined because he hates the idea of renting (throwing away money, etc)

So I thought that would never happened, the housing market in Orlando is very expensive and its rough to even find a place in your price range to buy. Let alone at a convenient location. And I’ll be in Orlando going to school for at least three more years. So I’d kinda resigned myself to three years of long distance hell. 

well...A few days ago he admitted he’d been seriously considering getting an apt with me when my lease is up (July)...and now he’s talking about it a lot and talking about how excited he is and what kind of furniture we’ll have and how nice it’ll be to just be around eachother all day and sleep together every night and im just so fucking happy. 

[aclockmakersdream]

I just want to be loved and matter to you, what did I do wrong?

[tinyspacesquids]

Brandon said goodnight like an hour ago and went to sleep. Well he woke back up and just started texting me cute sweet things and its really fucking adorable. He is a precious tiny baby what even.

[tinyspacesquids]

So as you guys may have heard, Shaylee and I are dating this guy. His names Brandon. And he's like perfect holy fuck. He's really cute and sweet and I'm getting comfortable with him pretty fast. But that's kind of scary too. Because I'm really bad at getting close. And I'm trying hard to not push him away. Like. He's so cute and sweet and he's such a fucking nerd and I don't wanna fuck this up.