I'm sorry for hurting you but I really don't wanna continue the "soon-to-be us" already. Sorry.
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I'm sorry for hurting you but I really don't wanna continue the "soon-to-be us" already. Sorry.
enough.
this will probably be the first acknowledgement that I struggle with this simple word when it comes to relationships. how far is too far? with Alex, it's been a roller coaster from the start, but I always tell myself at the end of the day that the highs overshadow the lows. but I find myself yearning for more, and I feel afraid to find that maybe Alex isn't capable of giving me more; he isn't capable of being the one who only sees me in his world, or realizes the forever unkept messy hair hot-mess in every corner of my life person is always a degree of who I am. for pushing me to be a better version of myself I am entirely grateful for, but where is the enough? when does it transform from positively improving me to someone who he would change to rather be with? then there's spitefulness. tonight there was bringing up his slutty self-centered galfriend as he so eloquently put it, "just to piss me off." I wanna be with the guy who talks me down from the ledge, not pushes me off it. This also isn't the first time he's done something like this, so when do I say, "enough." If I've already figured out he might not be able to go the distance, then why am I still here?!
Friend Zone
When the person you are in love with puts you in the friend zone because they got things to work out. Nigga pleeze. Too many things can happen. 1. I can fall out if love 2. I can start enjoying my single life and begin to mingle. 3. I meet a guy, who pays me attention, treats me like a queen and makes me fall head over heels. 4. I have a one night stand with a cutie,have unprotected sex, wind up pregnant, and have a shot gun wedding. All of the above have ran through my mind in the wee hours of the night.
Blues
Somewhere down the line
There was a gingerbread man'
Who looked right through me
Wondering who I was.
Let's talk it through
The sweet candy tasted bitter
The memories washed ashore
The blue sky twinkling above.
I'm glad I am finally in a relationship where we both trust each other. A relationship where we both just use each other's phone if ever we need to. A relationship where we know each other's passwords cause sometimes we need something from our emails but we're both lazy to look it up so we ask each other to do it for us. A very trusting relationship but not in a clingy kind of way. It's so natural between us we don't even notice we do it. It's just so right between us. Finally.
Trying to say "I love you" for the first time..
Justin: I won't say it first, you say it first.
Me: No you say it first.
Justin: Okay fine, let's think of a song that has those words in it... Started singing.. "There's only one thing, two say, those three words, four you.... I love you." I love you. I love you.
Me: I love you too :)
Sigh.
Justin: Last night while you were sleeping, I was pulling your hair back trying to imagine what you would look like with no hair. You are still very pretty, even without hair.
Today while I was making lunch, my boyfriend Justin suddenly hugged me from behind. He doesn't usually do it so I asked him what's wrong. He said nothing and just laid his head in my shoulder and hugged me tight. I thought it wasn't possible but in that moment, I just fell in love with him more.