#relationships-

[caldroid]

every time 1 of my friends mentions their partner(s) i get super upset bc it kind of feels like everyones in a relationship and im. not. and it feels like im never really gonna find anybody bc no one likes me in That Way (except gross guys)

also in the middle of typing this my stepmom got mad at me and i wanna die

[caldroid]

hhaha when can there stop being stories about people who love their exes & are purposely abandoned/forgotten by them i want to die ((((:

[caldroid]

me: wow, im doing great!! *is suddenly reminded of my ex* whoops time to die

[caldroid]

someone: oh yeah im still friends with my ex! (:

me: ..??? ????? how

[caldroid]

ah yes its that time of the year when i start remembering how much i hate my ex

[caldroid]

just kinda thinking about how badly my last serious relationship ended & how its affecting all my possible future relationships and is the reason for my really bad trust issues

it doesnt really help that i know lots of people in good/healthy relationships and i get upset bc i know i’ll probably never be able to be like that too w/o the constant fear of my significant other literally cheating on me + lying to me and abandoning me out of nowhere

[ladphobia]

i just want a cute monster boyfriend with nice teeth and good opinions is it rly too much to ask?