Jun 12, 2017
Helpless and disappointed. My body feels tired and my face feels heavy. Thoughts of regret dominated me and I just want to be able to have the courage again to trust somebody.
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Helpless and disappointed. My body feels tired and my face feels heavy. Thoughts of regret dominated me and I just want to be able to have the courage again to trust somebody.
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Shit...
I just pressed rewind. And the stop button ain't working. Fuck
Is that inappropriate??
Sooooooooo Long time no write. Me and the mans are visiting family and friends in IL. It's been a horrible drive, 16 and a half hours to be exact. But we did the damn thang and we have to do it again. *cries* Let me not ramble I have to get to this point. Tomorrow I meet up with a friend from high school. I asked my best friend to find HIM for me. In high school we hung in the same group. He was the guy with a completed basement that had a pool table and couches and a tv. So needless to say we all filled his house for hours of fun. I had THE BIGGEST crush on him. But he was nerdy and not very forward. He dated some girls in our circle. I even dared him to make out with my best friend because I was too scared to do it myself. We found each other on THE FACEBOOK. This was before me and the mans were even a thing. We chatted innocently. Next thing I know me and the mans are a THING. I told him I was getting married and he told me "Don't do it" I said "why" He said "just don't" I was so confused I stopped talking to him. I told my mans because I felt like I should have. He simply said "I'm not surprised, he had the biggest crush on you in high school" WHAT!? WAIT WAIT WAIT A MINUTE WHAT!?!? Oh come on!!!!!! Guys I was so distraught. I mean I was obsessed with this kid and you know how sometimes you live thinking "Why didn't I make a move?" "Why didn't I say something?" "What would it be like now if I had?" Regardless I'm so happy now with my mans. But I'm also very excited to see HIM tomorrow. We spoke on the phone and it was just like before. My mans made a joke like "Did you talk with your boyfriend?" I laughed it off and said "Oh yeah my second mans" He has a gf now. And she's gonna get mad cause the way imma hug him will be long and awkward. I think her and the mans might be upset. I know the answer to my question and this IS completely inappropriate but I just have to do it. I just HAVE to.
Why I always fall back to you, I'll never know
I NEED SOMETHING NEW TO OCCUPY MY MIND
Write about a time when you kept a commitment that was difficult to keep.