Decade in Review
2009: Graduated from high school. I went to SDSU out of a completely conservative Christian high school. Felt a bit distant from everyone. Hated life.
2010: Started wearing pants for the first time in like 7 years. Pre-nursing school requisites and trying to figure out life during the last year of my teenage life. By myself a lot. At the library. At School. At Starbucks. I honestly hated how lonely and depressed I was. Project 365.
2011: Turned 20. School and hanging out with friends whenever they were back home. I got my CNA certification and worked for the remainder of the year. Skimped out in the Fall semester.
2012: Met some pretty cool people, life lightened up a bit with being a fangirl with my friends and going to concerts. August 2012, I quit my CNA job after a year upon acceptance into Nursing School. Late night chats with faraway friends helped me keep my sanity. The end of the first nursing school semester kept me in high stress.
2013: Start of weight loss journey. Kyungsoo, why are you the love of my life? Actually started bonding with some people for once. Honestly felt the most alive I have been since high school. School, friends, family, church. Life was great because I had a sense of purpose and anticipation. August 23rd, I saw Kyungsoo with my own eyes. He really fueled me to lose weight. from 137 to 113 ish?
2014: Weight loss and infatuation for Kyungsoo at full blast. The definite ending of a relationship I had hoped for since I was like 11. Korea in 2014 and graduated Nursing school. Met Lawrence, my soon to be husband. Honestly, 2013 and 2014 were the best years of my life and I owe it all to Kyungsoo (and God of course). But make those years into a Reply story.
2015: Had some falling out with friends. Jobless for a couple months. God blessed me with an inpatient nurse job at the end of the year. The season of growing pains and the starting year of transitions into full-fledged adulthood.
2016: Bittersweet transitions and new beginnings. New city. New job (big girl job and a stressful one at that). Learning how to adjust and the start of depression spells.
2017: Moved into an actual apartment. Got engaged. Still struggling to adjust to life here in LA. Depression.
2018: Start of new job and adjustments with that. Depression lightens. Wedding preparation. Wedding day blues.
2019: First year of marriage. Adjustments of trying to live with each other. Depression and weight gain. Where does life go? Where does the time go? For the most part, I feel like a machine that always works. Even short-time pleasures and gallivanting don’t last. What is it I’m looking for?