call me zydrate the way i cum in a little glass vial

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call me zydrate the way i cum in a little glass vial
Realised just now I've never seen her standing upright with the fence piece attached. Very cool bts photo, courtesy of Alex Kavanagh.
Cannibal!Shilo AU
Nathan Wallace feeding Shilo human corpses. It’s partially a “the zombie of my loved one I have tied up in a secret basement” thing but still in a “I was the one who made you sick” way.
Nathan as a Repo Man has, unprecedented access, to the dead. Specifically the kind of dead that nobody would look too hard for, the kind that people are already expecting be missing pieces, and the kind soaked in Zydrate.
Like, he didn’t need to do all that, but also they’re Zydrate Corpses so it’s a legitimate chemical dependency.
Speaking of, Weird Zydrate meta to justify Shilo eating un refrigerated days old bodies and not dying of Hyper food poisoning.
I think Zydrate fucks the decomp process. Like, Graverobber doesn’t do any additional processing between Gun extraction, vial, gun, administration and like, both 21st Century Cure and Zydrate anatomy emphasize that—
“It’s Clean, it’s Pure, It’s Clear”
It stays and settles and accumulates in the body. It’s an anesthesic, but it doesn’t seem to be used in tandem with any other surgical pharmaceuticals, like anti rejection drugs or antibiotics. A Miracle drug that distorts the natural process of the body, equality in death at the similarity between the princes and paupers, both kinds of junkies stay fresh for longer, for a long long time, all they get is cold.
Undecayed artificiality in surgically modified corpses is already a thing, with titanium replacements and silicone implants, false teeth. Push it to the limit. Maybe helps explain how geneco organs can get retrieved and reused. like, there’s crazy process work for organ harvesting irl but repos are doing their work in piss alleys.
The emotional incest of it all would be even more thematically blatant if in addition to lying to her about her health and deliberately isolating her from society, he was making her think a Different social taboo was totally normal because he said so.
Like, Nathan and Shilo’s relationship is already so deeply built around Marni. Both the idea of her, as Nathan’s Dead Wife, and the physical reality of her Corpse. Her name, her death, Shilo’s resemblance to her, Marni’s illness, brought up in every interaction between them, as justification for Shilo’s “fragility ” and abuse. The wigs, the dress, the body in the walls, the only place that Shilo can go other than the house is Marni Wallace’s grave.
“You’ve turned this house into her tomb”
Cannibal!Shilo should be messy mostly because I love gore, but also because we can make the Incest vibes worse if the reason she’s walking around like that is because Nathan was always the one cleaning her up afterward. Holding her gently by the chin and looking into her big eyes as he wipes away the blood. White babydoll dress and dark dark partially congealed gore on her face and hands. Waking up in bed with her face clean but with something stuck under her nails.
The Mag of this universe. Make Everyone’s a Composer more evil. Seeing Shilo and going to find her. Finding more than she bargained for. More than she could have ever anticipated.
Mag’s forced smile and wide eyes, her hands closing over Shilo’s gore covered ones, accepting Shilo’s choppy fan rambling while suppressing the horrible sinking realization of what exactly has been happening all those years when she thought Shilo had died.
“Nathan what has become of you?”
This is just a more visceral realization. One more part of how it’s always been, revealed to be a lie. It’s a missing stair thing, where like, she’s Mostly comparably well adjusted except for the, well…
“Things you see in a graveyard, Things you see in a graveyard“
The story starts almost the same way, except it’s Obligate Cannibalism!Shilo escaping out into the plot of Repo! and finding out that basically everyone else Including the survival sex workers just injects extracted Z.
That said, Graverobber having to confront the “is it really any different than what I do?” Of it all Is delicious. He’s become really inured to stealing glowing corpse juice for people to inject. Collapse the metaphor. Face the reality of the craft. The literal truth of—
“An Entire City Built On Top Of The Dead”
Graverobber in the cemetery coming across Shilo and thinks she’s a mourner. He’s about to be the kinda asshole that extracts at a funeral, a thousand crass blunt irreverent jokes in his head about tapping kegs and such until his angle changes and he gets a better picture of why, exactly, Shilo’s shoulders are shaking.
The girl’s panicking, he realizes, all twitching muscles and big heaving gasps that’s not all she’s doing, though. He stops as he watches her dig her fingers into the livid underarm of a still stiff corpse with a crack of its elbow. Biting and tearing off a strip with a sound that’s audible in the stillness of the graveyard. She’s still chewing when she closes her eyes with a sigh and the tension releases from her shoulders. She wipes ineffectually at her mouth with the back of her equally gory hand, and settles into what would be a textbook Z high if not for the details, the blood shining black in the low light, the crunching squelches as he fingers claw back into the meat of the cold body she’s still straddling. Graverobber’s eyes go to the corpse he’s still kneeled over. The long needle of his gun positioned just above its nostril.
Anyway, in this context, Needle into a Bug get more fucked up Now! Both Graverobber talking her through the extraction process and the Marni’s corpse of it all.
Like, with the cannibalism being specifically Zydrate corpses, her “cure” is actually a hit of pure Z, not that it would solve everything completely. Even if the Zydrate itself wasn’t a problem, and it is, the learned association for Shilo’s relief is still Something Between Her Teeth and not a gun pressed against her anatomy. That’s going to be what she Wants.
In fact, Didn’t Know I’d Love You So Much could end with Shilo eating Nathan, both giving into and forgiving him for the abuse, (welcome back incest metaphor) but her wanting to and Not could also be the backbone of Genetic Emancipation, an escape from the cycles of violence and control she’s been subjected to her entire life.
“And we will always have each other in our time of need, Daddy you’re the world to me” vs “True, though the imprint is deep in me, it will always be up to me”
Splitting the difference, to preserve the very good imagery of Shilo up to her wrists in her dying father’s guts, would have her doing some, and then stopping herself (and maybe vomiting) Genetic Emancipation continuing with the Evidence of her on camera cannibalism all down her front. Of Course she ran. Of Course.
If the Repo! 4k remaster ends up the cinemas, the elder millennial goths are going to be so cringey…
I will be one of those elder millennial goths. I will be so cringey.
i didnt say repo! the genetic opera was GOOD i said i LIKED it
i love when ppl ship themself with Pavi Largo like that man would let you live longer than 20 minutes after finding you attractive