hey mate. So i read Reset and i was feeling way to much so i decided to track you down to pour all my thoughts on you, even so, idk if you are going to even see this, but hey, it's a way to take it out of my chest.
So, um. I don't know if i finished your fic, or your fic finished me, in the best way possible. I've been here since the game came out, and been in and out the fandom like three times by this point, and this time around i decided to read some fanfic and and, i found yours and- godness. IT'S SO GOOD, IT'S AMAZING, I LOVE IT. The plot, Connor's personality, Hank's too, i adore time travel fix it fanfics and tbh this one is just so perfect, *chef kiss*, i love it, you don't have and idea. I finished reading and came back to re read some loose scenes because i felt empty inside after it, lol. Connor's panic attack at the bridge, he shooting through Amanda's head, Christopher's support (?), everything it was sooooo good. Heck, CONNOR'S BREAKDOWN WAS MY FAVORITE SCENE, I'M NOT KIDDING YOU, I READ IT LIKE 5 TIMES ALREADY, IT HAS SO MUCH FEELINGS ON IT, SO MUCH RAGE, SO MUCH HATRED, DAMN, TBH BEFORE I WAS AT THAT MOMENT I WAS LIKE "I hope Connor says fuck on some moment." THEN THE MOTHERFUCKER SCENE HAPPENED AND I GASPED, AND THEN THE SCENE WITH NOT-HIM, WHEN HE SAID FUCK YOU, I GOT FLIPPED, LMAO. I ADORE WITH HOW MUCH FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS YOU WROTE THAT, I COULD FEEL IT THROUGH MY PHONE'S SCREEN. I WANT TO STOP TALKING ABOUT THAT MOMENT BUT IT'S ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE BECAUSE I A D O R E D IT, I L O V E IT. He said Fuck with so much venom i felt so proud. Heck, i'm not used to read Connor with feelings other and anxiety nd ptsd, so seeing him feeling whatever this was, was refreshing as heck and i now hc him with sass. I could even say- you made the character better, and that my friend is not something easy to do, preach, i bow to you, i want to put ur brain in a throne where it belongs.
Anyway- that's it, nothing more, nothing else. I just wanted to say that your fic? Amazing, perfect, tasteful, thanks for the meal, i love it with my whole heart and i will be obssesed with it for the next week, even month, lol. <3
Omg thank you so much for this ask it was SUCH a blast to read! I showed it to my partner and they also thought it was so nice and funny to read through.
I'm so glad that you're also the kind of person to go back and re-read specific scenes when you finish a fic because I am absolutely that kind of person as well lmao. And I love that the not!connor scene had such an impact on you!! It felt so cathartic to write and I'm so happy that readers feel the same way about it! :D
Also, your ask made me go back to Reset and count up all the times Connor says "fuck" - because I thought it was pretty often, but you're right! He doesn't actually say it very often (out loud, he thinks it way more often). So here's the stats of how many times Connor says "fuck" in Reset if you're curious XD
8 (not counting his breakdown) 13 (counting the breakdown) Getting back on track though, I'm so happy that you loved my version of Connor's personality! I was worried when I started writing this that people wouldn't like or vibe with him, because (as you said) people tend to headcanon him as a lot more anxious, which is also very good, it just didn't fit my fic very well. So hearing that not only did you like him but also that my fic made him feel better to you is SUCH high praise. And that's not even counting all the OTHER high praise in this ask that really did make my whole ass week.
Thank you so much for this ask, I'm sorry I didn't get to it sooner (you know how tumblr is lmao) <333