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NERVES pt6

Semi Eita SMAU

Part 5

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Part 7

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And I oop🤡

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I took the bdsm test because I am a bitch and I know that.

But honestly I didn't expect things to turn the way they did lmao

Take the quiz

I already knew I am a masochist but 83%???? Unexpected.

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I'll give you three names for Nerves but I won't give you the context, y'all have to choose and write one in the comments.

•Atsumu

•Oikawa

•Daishou

Daishou would be so much easier tho lmao

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Just so you know

Ennoshita is an ass water okay?

Remember this kids.

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I swear to the gods I'll make 38299201 sour jars if you don't take care of your fucking health.

UNDERSTOOD?

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I'm proud of my writing, I really am.

Because if I wasn't proud of what I do, I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't have almost 300 people following me and liking what I write.

I am proud, but I know that somewhere, out there, someone is better than me.

I'm good in writing, I can sing, I can draw, I can do a lot of things, but I'm just... Good.

It's impossible for me to be the best at everything, I wasn't even good at school, I am not good at English, I'm still scared of writing in English, even if I run a blog here and you come from every part of the world probably.

Yesterday I saw someone reach 8000 followers here and in my mind I was so happy for that person, but another part of me was sad, because that is one of the person that are better than me.

I feel like a tiny small little rock in a huge garden full of blossoming flower.

But a rock can't become a flower, the rock can be moved, lifeless and placed in another garden full of other blossoming flowers, to watch them become what it can never be.

I can just watch and copy, that's something I'm very good at.

Probably I'm not the best even at copying, someone is surely better.

I have hard times making friends, I get annoying and noisy easily, I'm not a good person, I tend to get angry in very little and it's easy for me to throw hands.

I'm good at throwing hands, but again, not the best.

I'm good in a lot of things, really, but I would love being the best at something.

This long pause I took from accepting requests is because I feel so insecure, I don't know if I can make you happy, I don't know if I can write what you ask for.

I'm truly, deeply sorry for what i am, i tried a lot, really and I'm sorry to ask you for some more time for the requests, but at least you'll have a chapter of "Nerves" every two days if I can.

Is that okay?

Hope I'm good at apologizing even if I'm not the best

Have a good day, remember to take care of yourselves😊❤️

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Hey, I'm here to tell y'all two things, one funny as fuck, the other one a bit sad.

Funny first: just realized that "the setter is the team's control tower" is basically the Haikyuu's version of "mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell"

Sad: I won't be here this week, I have so many things to do, but don't worry, I'm not sick or anything, just need a break from social media and to do something in my house, don't worry.

I love you all!

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Fuck.

I'm in hiatus and y'all made me reach 400 followers, what do I have to do with you?

Lucky for you, as soon as I come back, I have a special chapter of "Nerves" and honestly hope y'all ready for some good gay shit and confessions.

Besides that, I want to say a few things.

Thank you so much for making me reach this point, I never thought I could arrive here.

I love y'all, each of you, I really love you and Idk if you understand how much you mean to me and how much this blog is making me feel happy, how much happier I feel, how much my chest feels light after years and years of carrying the burden of not being enough.

I enjoy talking to you, either answering questions or talking about dumb shit, that's why I want to make a day of the week for you all.

You can talk to me about everything, either anonymously or not, my box is open for y'all to talk about ANYTHING, especially about kinky stuff lmao.

Or if you have problems, if you feel insecure, if something bothers you, if you are happy or excited and want to tell about it to someone and you don't know who to talk to, Mondays are your days to come here and talk about everything, I'll try to help you the best I can and to share your happiness.

I know this isn't much for a special since this goal for me is huge, but for once I want to make something for you because I love you.

Thank you for being here.