Gift of Anxiety
I had a problem with a kid in class yesterday, just before the end of the day. It was something that I could have ignored, he was in the front row, two feet away, playing a game on his cell phone during a movie.
I had already dealt with two others earlier in the class, and I confiscated his as well, only seemed fair. This kid went ballistic. Office was involved, nothing felt right about the resolution.
Not, not, not looking for sympathy here. I've been doing this for 30 yrs and I still take it home with me - now I recognize it as an opportunity.
Picture this - I've been thinking recently about my beliefs on control, and a co-player came onto my stage to play this out together. It was a gift.
So many core beliefs I have about myself were triggered, none of them pretty, none new. I've felt these feels in different situations as long as I can remember. This time the result was a strong sense of nameless anxiety. Like I'd had too much coffee. The world was secretly ending.
These are the kinds of situations, when I can step out of myself enough to recognize them, that are bringing me my greatest healing right now.
After an evening and morning of twitchy muscles and feeling like some shadow was hovering around me, I finally did a Radical Forgiveness worksheet and the anxious reaction cleared. Yes, that simply.
We are beings of chemical reactions. Change the belief, the point of view, the attitude... Change the chemistry.
Love, Nancy