#revoltheir

[gr00veytoney]

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I no longer live life in the now, for I feel that my life is irrelavnt to time I spend days wondering and thinking about how may my words become better, How my rhetoric transform into the smooth I wanted life to be my best friend with all thats in it A sad truth is that when life doesnt go as planned it just becomes an acquaintance horrors that I have faced as the years passed I run from a self created nightmare called me I run from who i am who was and fearful of who i may be With nothin to stablize me . There is no anchor that can hold me down No one is there to bring any light to my own darkenss the past current and future relationship with any one has taught me well - for that i am grateful The con is the fire it brought to my brain full of confusion and the heartache that has taken over a organism of peace Speak of her as i speak of my fears i dare not to  To show bravery i must. She was my everything my world my castle on a hill in the sky. Until the sky turned grey and all my futuristic fantasies become the morbid reality I feel no pain so tears do not fall down from my eyes but just droplets of water I asked for the LORD for strength to move on and try to reconcile with myself to never make the same mistake twice But a fool never knows better She was there when i wanted but never appeared when i needed her My eyes blood shot red from the truth that has appeared to me I am no longer her one and only she is nothing but a myth to me shame to her and myself. Never found the right love or then ill still be there Never found love at all or then she will still be with me I roam aimleslly with no destination wishing there was a home with my name attached a smile that could melt the cold from heart All i receive is cold sweats and heat chills in a bed that is only my own Will life promise me pleasure or will pain continue to knock on this door of misery. I pray to no longer be a prey to lifes wicked vengeance I will smile even though i do not know what is to come

[gr00veytoney]

The Black Life

Countless Murders of Black Men & Women by those hired to protect us. Despite being innocent or guilty of a crime the problems is that police officers choose lethal force first. Not a flesh wound or a taser. Every officer either gets paid leave or/and free pass by the grand jury despite the video tapes of evidence for the majority of these crimes. While white criminals get the opportunity to live and be prosecuted - James_Holmes ,a gunman, dressed in tactical clothing, set off tear gas grenades and shot into the audience with multiple firearms. Twelve people were killed and seventy others were injured, which was the largest number of casualties in a shooting in the United States until the 2016 Orlando nightclub shooting. He is alive Alive Dylan Roof gets escorted and and taken to a Burger King after slaughtering a group of black church members in a church . He is alive. Austin Harrouff, 19, the frat boy who stabbed a Florida couple to death before cannibalizing one of the bodies. Was tasered and taken in alive. He is alive Brock Turner spends 3 months after being sentenced only 6 months in prison for raping an unconscious woman in an alley. “The average sentence for convicted rapistswas 9.8 years, while the actual time served was 5.4 years” He is alive The Affluenza teen who killed someone while drunk driving then fled the country is still alive and facing charges. He is alive. On September 3, the Dakota Access pipeline company attacked Native Americans with dogs and pepper spray as they protested against the $3.8 billion pipeline’s construction. If completed, the pipeline would carry about 500,000 barrels of crude per day from North Dakota’s Bakken oilfield to Illinois. The project has faced months of resistance from the Standing Rock Sioux tribe and members of nearly 100 more tribes from across the U.S. and Canada. They were protecting their sacred land and their water supply. They are alive. And yet, your worried about Colin Kaepernick taking a knee during the national anthem . I’m calling it now America is a great nation by comparison. And I say by comparison because as a white individual in this nation you can receive justice and possible punishment for your crimes. While white individuals are innocent until proven guilty Non-white (Black) individuals are guilty due to prejudice / racism/any form of discrimination or dead at the scene because of those same three reasons . We don’t receive the same justice as you do. Call it a problem with the system if you want. But the end all is we live in a heavily populated white society that happens to be racist or prejudice to all that isn’t them. These individuals/groups will never see their indiscretion and past actions as wrong. Because it’s all towards their benefit. True America is the Native American you slaughtered and stole this land from. Decimating an entire civilization. True America is the Mexicans of the California region who you excommunicated from their homes and stole their lands. True America is the 400 years of free labor that you received. Placing this country eons ahead of schedule. To the Japanese citizens you placed in concentration camps during ww2. To the mistreatment of any person of Muslim/Islamic descent or choice of religion. Because of the attacks of a specific group. To those who are silent or who choose to speak against our cause to be treated equally. This is what I am baffled by to this day. It was your ancestors who brought us here and enslaved us. It was your ancestors who raped our mothers daughters sister and wives. It was your ancestors that called upon men like Jim Crow to break down the African family so that we may be better slaves. It was your ancestors that killed our children. It was your ancestors that didn’t see us as human beings placing us an unmarked graves. Your ancestors hung us from a noose. Your ancestors tried to keep us separate. Your ancestors tried to silence our voice. Your ancestors created terrorist organizations like the KKK to eliminate the African population. Your ancestors said that i am only 3/5 of you. After all the terror you have brought upon the cultures of this country. How dare any of you including these murderous police officers say that “they were terrified and feared for their lives”. When you are the ones who have committed such great atrocities. How did blacks become the one to fear and not you? Maybe it’s our power to endure and survive all your evils the way we have. Maybe that’s what scares you. To every black man and woman out there. Be Cautious, Be Careful but BE NOT AFRAID. Continue to live every day as if it were your last. Love your mother love your father. Love your siblings, extended family and friends. Continue to search for the voice of reason to uplift those around you. Watch those who hate you but continue to be the loving you that you are. We will build, grow , educate and enhance ourselves from within. strength and unity to all those who promote a better and equal life for everyone. 💆🏿‍♂️🤷🏿‍♂️✊🏿✊🏿✊🏿✊🏿✊🏿 We are nothing like you or what you describe of us.

[gr00veytoney]

💦☔️Copulation

I want you to grab your inner thigh while and just for a brief moment your other hand covers your breast and pinches your nipple Imagine me behind you speaking you. Guiding you through your own body My voice bares down your neck Now watch my hand come around you. From your right knee I grip and grab you and I slide my hand up to your clit Your hand on your thighs begins to move and follow mine Together we are holding your clit saturated with moisture You anticipate my fingers inside you. But I resist I hold your left breast and squeeze your nipp with my left and my right I begin to rub your clit as I kiss and nibble on your ear You begin to stagger a bit but I hold you up As your Knees buckle and tremble. I then insert my middle and index finger inside you. As if they alone are holding you up Curling my fingers to the wall closest to the frontal pelvis You feel you juices running down your thighs. It's begins to feel like a storm. Body shakes and your voice moans and gasps for air At every curling motions my fingers makes i then lift your body up and down. Two motions begin to collide. Still grabbing your breast biting your shoulders neck and ear You feel me growing on your back down to your ass You grab me. Feel my hard phallic symbol in your hand. Veins in sight. Before you begin to stroke me You feel my pulse by squeezing my dick now you feel fully in sync I leave your breast and grab your ass. Spread your cheeks and bend you over. As my fingers depart your wet pussy i enter inside of you. My fingers remain on your clit rubbing in a circular motion as I stroke you You cant breathe. The intensity is overwhelming You feel me stretching you out no matter how wet youve gotten Stroking at a calm pace allowing you to breath. But my fingers begin to rub harder and move faster I have place one foot one the bed and one remaining on the floor allowing me to now move my dick in a circular motion. Making my way around your pussy As your bent over you enjoy the view Squeezing your tits You scream your about to cum I then move with more aggression Pounding and beating that pussy You feel me just swelling up inside of you The harder I go the deeper I get. You begin to feel my nuts clap against that pussy Every stroke has you feeling different. Body temp has raised to a max. Legs are like jelly. But I'll hold you together. Your pussy grips my dick as you climax Screaming your body regains new strength the wasn't there prior. Still moving and fckn in a rhythmic motion I tell you I'm about to nut Your pussy swells again Fluids squirt and leak down your leg Where do you want it baby? I grip your body harder. Wrapping my hands around your neck As I grip your throat I nut all in that pussy. Like a Cannon blasting my dick shoots and grows in size that's unimaginable for just a moment. I then throw you on the bed and watch you gasp for air and body quake

[gr00veytoney]

A Lover's view that the other couldn't Fathom

I think of our last debate. I do agree that our debates go overboard at sometimes. Most of the time I think we are arguing different fronts of a broad concept . The remainder of times, I think you may have a point. We both have complexes of inferiority and superiority to ourselves and each other. That’s ok though. We are elitist, so our lives will always provide some sort ground for quarrels. We can think of it as sharpening the mind but in a very intense manner. Condescending tones coming from both parties will always be inevitable  I don't think we should be insulted by it anymore unless it is coupled with public embarrassment I just want to state that I highly respect your opinion. You're one of the few people who can say something to me and i won't even bother to fact check you. I at times, when speaking to others on specific topics,  regurgitate your words as if they were my own. . Then defend it when some opposes. I believe in your relationship with knowledge You're the smartest person I know. Our discussions are great even when they get hectic. I just want to make sure that when they do get hectic we are on the same page. I suggest that in the midst of a conversation that we have a safe word that allows us to review the actual premise of the argument and keep us from arguing on a tangent that's out of scope of the conversation. Some times our opinions will be different and if they dont effect the other person then we should be content with that. Sometimes our opinions ,whatever the topic may be, are hard to articulate. In all fairness when we sense the other is having a hard time clearly stating a point. Instead of demolishing each other we should help one another. Then demolish each other when we both are armed with ammunition. Throughout our entire relationship we have found or discussed balance. I think we should find balance here as well. I think that all relationships between acquaintances, friends and lovers have their pros and cons. A con doesn't have to be a disadvantage, but it could just be something deemed not as good as a pro. We have found ways to make everything work. We can talk for hours about any subject. We enjoy each other's company. There's a physical attraction. We enjoy different things but are able to come together as one. I think we are both in between type A & type B personalities. We carry specific qualities of both.   My dominant portion is what you admire because that might the equivalent to your recessive  portion of who you are -and the same goes for me. All that I admire about you as a strength is not a strength for me. But together we are balanced. So a conversation like the last I think it would've been best to reset. A conversation. like the one we had almost a year ago. I think that not only deserves a discussion in which we both can express our views but also us doing research together so we can hopefully come to an answer together. We shouldn't make moves until we have an answer. 

 Now I'll put my self out there. I do not read as much material as you do but am I reading and it's a lot more than before. Way more. I don't look at material as you do either. Whether it's your personality or schooling that has provided this view its unknown to me. I've always based my conclusions/ analysis on: Logic/ reasoning , General consensus, a fact or information gathered from some obscure passages or regular forms of text. Sometimes it's all 4. From my view it seems like you come to your conclusion/ analysis : by data comprehension, fact or multiple text sources. Like a true economist . Not to say you don't use logic or i dont use data but it may just be our strong suits. Now to the nitty gritty I don't believe you respect my craft. I think you respect it because it's something you can't do but I don't think you respect it. I've felt that since you've always taken higher classes and now a part of a Phd program. I feel like you look down on me. I feel that You respect me partially because in spite of all that you admire - my ability to command a room or how I carry myself. Before I say anything I want to say that you have one of the strongest appetites for knowledge and understanding. So I think I understand why you do the things you do. When you don't know something you look into text for answers and you'll continue searching until you find out. You've also been conditioned to do that for school. For you I wouldn't say I look down but I do feel like you're closed minded. Although your open to reading anything and everything. I at times think that you assume it all to be true just because youve read it in some prestigious journal or random text. I acknowledge that  you difference between texts that could be too liberal, conservative or opinionated  I sometimes think that you don't think for yourself on what it all means when you sum it all up. Not to dole out a low blow but I think that's also why you've been having such a hard time knowing what to write about for your future dissertation. You have all the information in that noggin of yours and you have many interests. But creating or making sense of it all for a bigger picture story is difficult. So yes in the midst of our battles I get frustrated because at times all that you're providing is data -which you taught me can be provided to tell any story- Not necessarily your thoughts. I may not be 100% right about you but this is how i perceive you. And if I'm wrong help me see what you see.

[gr00veytoney]

Women are the Original Masochist

Do you think child birth is painful bearable because it comes from a pleasure center? The anus, which belongs to both male and female, is also tolerable, for some men and women, to pain in the same fashion as the vagina is. The reason for high levels of tolerance is because it's a pleasure center. To be clearer both areas the vagina and anus can either receive pleasure or stimulation through penetration of small or large objects. Unlike the vagina and anus, the penis can receive neither stimulation nor pleasure through penetration. It will only be painful. Masochism would be the perfect term to describe child birth and both anal and vaginal sex. Masochism would be the only explanation why some can endure high levels of physical pain. Pleasure must come from somewhere. I've come to the conclusion that women who take on child birth can endure such pain because mental pleasure can come from it, while physical pain takes hold over the body.

[gr00veytoney]

A question of love, loyalty and faith

If are a devout Christian , Catholic to your standards and to the religion and faith this question applies to you. If you married the love of your life. A man/woman who truly made you happy having all things in common except one, faith in religion. She or He is a great person despite that one particular difference especially since that difference is corner stone of most household and neighborhoods. But your spouse means the world to and vice versa.  Now when it's time for our bodies to leave this earth according to some faith doctrines specified above, if you don't believe in God then you will not be accepted into his kingdom in heaven. Now let's say you go to heaven but your spouse doesn't because of his beliefs. We can also extend this to friends and family 1. How do you feel about that? 2. How is it truly heaven if the ones you love are not there 3. Can you truly be happy knowing that you're in heaven and the ones you love could be in purgatory or burning in hell ?

[gr00veytoney]

Differences-Titles & Genuine acts

What’s the difference between  a BoyFriend/Girlfriend and a Man/Woman who enjoys your company?  If we claim not to own anyone and all things are free choice. Then no one belongs to anyone else. We aren’t slaves   So I would assume that we choose to be around one another by choice. A man who spends time with by choice with no title, may possibly. talk/sleep/etc with someone else But not leave you But if he doesn’t choose to be with anyone else then he just doesn’t  However, If your in a relationship and your significant other wants to talk/sleep/etc with someone else Again not leave you Do you think it’s because he said he’s in a relationship that will stop him from screwing or prevent the girl from indulging themselves in specific action with other persons Both are possible in each condition.   So why have a title.?? Ive established this point about titles--- It’s figurehead position with social impositions 

Disclaimer :

This all stands if both sides agree about how they feel. But then there wouldn’t be a problem.  Just don’t lie to the one your with. Or go back on a promise and keep someone in the dark. 

Here’s my view. Hopefully it makes sense.  

I hang out, sleep, watch movies, eat and talk with you. I do it because I like your company. 

I guess I can tolerate you.

 I don’t like relationships because things become expectation. And I like that I expect nothing from a woman. I admire all GENUINE ACTS -Free from hypocrisy, counterfeit and pretense

 I like when she does things that make her and me smile because that’s who you are. And hopefully it’s all vice versa. But relationships create liars.  Sometimes-(We do it because we think we are protecting the one we care about )If you call and I don’t pick up it could make you mad that I’m not available.  But if there is no expectation then there is no reason to lie. 

---------------- I believe Religion plays a big Role in many peoples lives but I don't believe it matters if you have lived with out it   It's who you are. I grew up in the church. I'm still the same person. I choose not to believe a relationship is needed. I still think (he she it)god🙏🏿) exist. I'm here. I just don't know how 🙏🏿did it. And I refuse to listen to other tell me what happen when they don't even know for sure. But statement that is shelled out every time is "it's in the bible so it must be true". I can't follow that sentiment. Now the bible makes sense at times and at other times it doesn't, but when that happens people allow it to be open to interpretation and that has occurred more often now. A very structured yet an Ambivalent piece of text And relationships I'm open to them. I just got out a four year relationship. But again I'm not against I'm just choosing to go about it differently. I feel that companionship resides deeper than titles and acknowledgments You have one best friend and several hundred friend. And the reason why the best is who he/ she is possibly because they serve the best purpose in your life. And by choice you choose to befriend them. But that doesn't mean your other great friends don't make you feel better than you best friend. So I'm stating that we chose our friends with no problems.  And if a friend has a specific qualm about us hanging out with different ppl it's seen as childish jealousy that can easily be whipped into shape or just leave the friend. And because of that measure that event rarely occurs.  . From my view the past and current state of relationships are the  make up of fear and restrictions. So I've always been this way. Maybe I've found better words relay my thoughts. And a greater sense of logic or reasonings to sit down and ask a question. Speaking on Religion TBC

Because truly if we are children of the lord. And followed the original rules. We are going to hell. But we changed it over and over again over the years began to state that just as long you try to lead a good life , pray and believe it's good. You tailor it to fit the lifestyle you want to live. Less and less ppl are following Catholicism Christians and baptist and are becoming "spiruatual" / (non denominational) now leaving the church but still claim Jesus. This is the metamorphosis of religion.

[gr00veytoney]

Do we care?

I dont know if enough people including  black people care about the black image.   Or have a lack of drive to understand the momentous power that we have as a community. I keep thinking about that show line sisters that aired on vh1. Blacks were outraged And spoke on the topic enough to boycott the show  until their demands were met. 

They looked up the corporate supporters of the show and boycotted their products too. And the world changed and now the show is off the air. This tactic works with patience. Same as the bus boycott. Granted other tv shows like love and hip hop are trash but I guess everyone needs to make a dollar. Marching/parades only work as a scare tactic so the opposer can see your numbers. But the actions of the majority must still occur.  I dont know  I'm still thinking.