I stopped sawing wood for one day to finally finish designing D-Rez.
D-Rez is a bit complicated to explain, so let me see if I can.
If you've seen Breathe, then you've already met D-Rez, she's Rez21. She didn't like being called that, so we updated her name to D-Rez.
If you haven't seen Breathe, well let me explain then.
I turn into a different person when I get really depressed. It's not so much a "personality shift", rather it's reversion. I revert back to being 16-20. I'm still aware of what's going on and can navigate my way out of it, and I also remember my episodes too. This all became more noticeable and prevalent after my big trigger in June and my suicide attempt. The thing that scared me the most about that attempt was I, the person who is typing this now, was not in charge, someone else was, and that someone was D-Rez. It's like the inner voice changes. When I'm okay and who I am now, D-Rez is my inner voice. She nags me negatively sometimes, and sometimes we just bitch and argue, she's very much a snotty teenager. But when she's in charge, I become the inner voice and I have to basically parent her to safety. She also likes treats when she's had a bad night.
It's a big reason why I actually can't talk once I get really, really depressed because I'm not the one in charge anymore. I've straight up had therapy sessions with my therapist where I communicated with her via text to speech cause I just couldn't talk.
I don't hate D-Rez, far from it, she's still me and she desperately needs someone to love her. But it's also why I added "we" to my pronouns list cause there's two of me in here and I gotta take care of both of us. It's a big reason I've gotten back into Twenty One Pilots so heavily because D-Rez LOVES Twenty One Pilots. I mean, I do too, they still mean a lot to me, but she really, really loves them.
So anyways, that's who D-Rez is. I gave her a loose backstory, which I will add more to later. I don't want to get too complicated with it, or it's gonna evolve into another fucking novel project like Ash did. "The city" is honestly a metaphor for "the internet", which is something I'm borrowing from Rez's first backstory before TDA was fleshed out.
D-Rez's design is kind of a halfway point between Rez21 and Ash, hence the cloak.
