You do understand that I could die 100% happy under any circumstance as long as I was listening to NIN?
It may seem like a bad thing, but it's actually good because there's no legitimate point to my life anyway. I'm a thorough nihilist and there's really no reason for me to go through this nonsense when the end result will be exactly the same as if I don't go through it. This means that the only thing that truly matters is dying happy, so it brings me great joy to know I am currently capable of dying happy. Well, not truly happy...But about as close as any of us are capable of getting to in this day and age. Well, not really, I'm bullshitting bigtime because I'm tired and was randomly in a good mood today for the first time in about 6 years. Maybe it's because I drank so much water.
Ehhh, I take that back, I'm not bullshitting. It's legitimate happiness. Fuck everybody.
Not really, it's not real happiness. But it's close enough. It's like a Reznorgasm but more of a mental thing than a physical one. You know what I mean.