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9: What is the biggest mistake you’ve made?
I should have waited a few years to go to university. I love learning but I had to use university as a way to get out of a horrible environment, when what I really wanted to do was save up some money and attend when I was in a better place financially and mentally. I know this was kind of beyond my control, but sometimes I do wish I’d just stuck it out for two more years.
24: What do you think people your age’s biggest insecurity is?
28: What personality characteristic gets you the most friends?
truly I have no idea lmao. I would say my sense of humour, probably? I’m constantly and genuinely surprised that I actually have friends, because I’m very cold and suspicious in initial introductions I think. I don’t mean to be; I’m just unsure of how weird I can be at a first meeting. if it isn’t my sense of humour I’d say probably my sense of adventure. I’m That Friend who will do any crazy plan with you.
32: What characteristic makes you a great boyfriend/girlfriend?
46: Which do you think you are stronger in? intelligence or emotional awareness?
I am fairly proficient in both, I think. my intelligence might come across in ways that are unconventional but I think I’m fairly smart, and I also think I’m fairly emotionally aware. I don’t think for me personally one outweighs the other, nor do I think they’re mutually exclusive. when it comes to how I utilise them, my attention span sometimes thwarts me on the intelligence front, though, whereas emotional awareness comes very naturally to me.
49: Are you attracted to happy people or broken souls?
58: What slightly unhealthy things feel attractive in a partner?
they need to be as reckless as I am and they need to have minor self-destructive tendencies (not sleeping a lot, going on binge drinking sprees, raking risks, etc). if my partner doesn’t share those qualities they’re not going to get on with me; I’ll feel stifled and they’ll probably be worried or scared unnecessarily. I need a partner who understands these urges to know that I know the risks, but I just don’t fucking care.
71: What negative character flaws do you fear – in your worst nightmares – that other people have spotted about you?
truly? nothing, really. I’m very open about my flaws. I’m open about them because I’m trying to keep the really negative ones under control, and things don’t seem so intimidating when I’m constantly joking about them. I’m moody, I’m subject to really dark mood swings, I can be selfish, I can be uncharitable, I can be cruel. it’s not anything unique to me, but they’re still flaws. I don’t think I fear any of them being exposed, I just worry that they might ruin something good.
74: What sort of things have made you envious recently?
earlier I was jealous of my past self because I found a ticket stub from London in my pocket. I can’t make it to London this summer and I’m devastated because London is my home city and I feel constantly a little bit out of step when I’m not there. I need to go back semi-regularly to remind me that there is actually a world out there (living in the mountains is good for the aesthetic, but for my insomniac, energetic ass the isolation and everywhere closing at 5pm rather than 11pm-1am is kind of a drag).
before that I was going through a bad mood slump and felt envious of everyone who was just… talking and interacting effortlessly with one another, and having meaningful relationships. I felt at the time that that would never be possible for me, but since then the mood has lifted and I’ve realised I was being, how would you say, a drama queen.
