#riding fear

[glamorousequestrian]

Just an update on my journey to getting my confidence and riding strength back!  Beetle was such a naughty grub today!We experienced our first pigroot and bucking session, which I’m honestly surprised I managed to sit- although one did nearly get me unseated haha!He was checked over and thankfully not lame, just feeling really excited and energetic today!Other than that, he was working nice and forward and we are starting to discover his go button instead of lazy dragging feet and tripping himself over!All in all, it was a challenge today but I’m glad I overcame it! ❤️

Feel free to ask any questions, I just plead no more hate! It’s just not nice! 

For those who don’t know what happened, I had a really bad riding accident that resulted in a broken back and developed riding anxiety. Just standing at the mounting block would send me into a full panic attack. I was terrified of standing next to my horse. I’m doing little updates on how we come along! x

[winterfuzzies]

Have A Lesson Tomorrow for the First Time in Years

To be honest, I have just been scared of riding ever since my jaw was broken. The only horse I felt comfortable on was my old mare, Feather. But she's retired now; and I still haven't gotten over my fear. Solo's ground work has become amazing; everything is done in a large arena with no halter or lead- but it's not fair to ask an unfinished horse to learn from a nervous, tense rider. So I finally bucked up the courage, and set up a riding lesson. If all goes well, I'll arrange more. They are affordable, and on dependable lesson horses that I can regain my confidence on. One day I want to actually be able to do all the things I dreamed of doing with Solo. Barrels, running, jumping, tail. He doesn't have to be amazing at all of it- I just want to be capable of doing them safely. And one day....one day, maybe... compete. I want to experience this horse world I see around me in which not every single horse you get on tries to throw you (because they are all green rescue horses that you weren't ready for but you were pushed too soon to ride anyway), but always seemed it of touch because of my inconsistent, and frankly bad training I had in the past, on top of the fear I feel now. I want to be the badass (but sweet) cowgirl I was born to be, but lost the courage to become. I will do this, and I will enjoy my horses again.