For the first time in my adult life, I met someone who I had an instant connection with; he’s an uber driver and almost as soon as I got into his car, our conversation was fantastic! We laughed and just clicked. He gave me his number so that I could request him to pick me up when I needed an uber again. Later that night we talked for an hour and a half. The next time he picked me up, he didn’t charge me and we talked for almost 3 hours. I felt like I could trust him and it seemed like he did me - we dug up our baggage and hung out our dirty laundry; I told him things I usually keep until a few months into a relationship. There was no breasting of cards, no half truths or censored stories. It was unnerving and thrilling to trust someone like that. He talked a lot about his ex-wife, his siblings and his life in general. I talked about my family, my past mistakes and what I wanted for the future. After I left his car and finally got into bed, my brain had a hard time quieting down; I was so excited to have met this man who seemed to fit into what I had envisioned for my future partner; physically, personality and spiritually. But after our conversation I knew that it wasn’t the right time; I’m moving across the country and he has so much healing to do from his divorce.
Tonight I got an email from him telling me that he’s not ready for a relationship, that he’s still in love with his ex and trying to win her back.
I won’t lie, it’s disappointing. But I knew it. I knew it wouldn’t work, but I know why we met. We met so that we can give each other hope. Because he fulfilled so much of my list, he’s given me hope that there really is someone out there for me. Someone who I will have that chemistry with, who will be a hard working man, who will know that he is a Son of God and who will share the same passions with me.
I hope to remain friends with this man. I hope that he can heal and return to Christ. I hope for him all the love and peace in the world.