Im honestly so satisfied working at my current work that while Im not planning on it, jt actually has me briefly considering just not pursuing my more ambitious interests like damn
Cause the benefits with this job are honestly neat and Im like damn cause apparently there are housing deals for full time workers at a SIGNIFICANTLY cheaper price as well
And I cant move there now cause I have a year lease but you bet my ass Im going there right after cause DAMN
Plus they give me a good retirement plan if I stay under their system plus I dont have to talk to people when I work????
Plus Im participating in the development of really important research and supporting causes that align with my moral view while surrounded by academically minded liberal people
And Im like damn I REALLY never want to leave at this rate š
The Buddhist in me is like "Ok but what if this is where the balance of need and happiness meet. Ambition is a form of desire and it may fuel me to disatisfaction and the denial of peace in favor of a lofty need" and realistically Im gonna see avenues of maintaining both cause where I am working and where I want to be to be at my potential and give myself fulfillment is honestly not impossible to maintain both
But like holy shit the longer I work here the more Im like god damn. I actually feel like a team member and not a capitalist cog what
Fucking hell for me to even consider settling at the ripe old age of 22 with my ambitious and passionate ass DAYUM
(I dont think settling would be good for me in the long run as I feel when I get older in life I'd regret not going further into what I specifically want to research, but damn)
