Jan 15, 2015
Missing J A D E N
Tonight I am having another break-down. I am trying to learn how to deal with coming out of these really bad break downs. Sometimes I JUST wanna continue crying, like right now! OH GOD MY HEART IS BROKEN INTO A BILLION PIECES, IT HURTS SO BAD, my heart FEELS HEAVY, SO VERY HEAVY. I am supposed to be cuddling with Jaden while he pulls my hair. My son like so many babies are dying, god please heal these children, protect them, be their cure. God I BELIEVE IN YOU, I LOVE YOU. I DONT KNOW WHY MY SWEET BABY ISNT HERE BUT I TRUST YOU GOD. I HAD A TASTE OF HEAVEN WHEN I HAD ALL MY CHILDREN HERE, I PRAY THAT ONE DAY I CAN BE WITH JADEN AGAIN...
I LOVE MY SON SO VERY MUCH!