#river's journaling

[strawberryteddybear]

little bit of a rant post abt a health issue of mine

so i have these like blisters the keep showing up on my skin mostly on my stomach and they itch and then they pop and after they pop they hurt, and idk what they are but im pretty sure they're at least not contagious

anyways so i was at the doctor talking about a medication I'm on and brought up the blisters, he took a look at them, said he didn't know what they were and then told me he was prescribing an antibiotic ointment. now i bet you're wondering, "does the ointment work tho?" and the answer is no not really i mean ive only had the ointment for like 4 days so we'll see if it decides to start working but until then imma keep putting the ointment on them cuz thats what doc said to do

also if anyone thinks they may be able to help diagnose me, the blisters are a light pink, they itch, have clear pus and only hurt after they're popped and only if i touch them, then they usually heal and leave a circular brown scar

[strawberryteddybear]

my shoulder has been hurting all month, pretty sure its a muscle strain from too much crotchet. i finished crotcheting a (small, abt 3ftx3ft) blanket at the start of December and the part of my shoulder that hurts lines up with how i crotchet which is like moving my entire arm, unlike how i knit which only cramps up my hands and nevrr made my shoulders hurt.

alas i am a usamerican and healthcare is ridiculously expensive (also its late i dont wanna go anywhere) ive made a temporary sling out of ironically a scarf i knit, its not the best solution and my shoulder still hurts but keeping my arm stationary definitely lowetrf the amount of pain

[strawberryteddybear]

Hi! im river, im aroace and my pronouns are he/they/it and whatever neos you feel like using.

i sometimes post minecraft builds, art, food pics and sometimes fiber arts(specifically crochet and knitting), humans are space orcs fiction and i sometimes fanfiction. tho i mostly just reblog stuff;)

my ao3-> Link

original post tag-> #river's yapping

art tag-> #rivers and paintbrushes

fiber art tag-> #thhe fiibberss

rant tag-> #river's journaling

tag where i whine about being sick -> #im sickk

haso story-> #the adventures of bizu and lav

queue tag-> #from the queue:)

the price of a quirk(mha wip fic) -> #the price of a quirk

[strawberryteddybear]

i love spooky stuff but it always makes me so paranoid:( i cant watch horror movies or i get so paranoid that i cant sleep and am just like laying there in bed all night keeping my eye on the dark corners of my room, being on my phone helps distract from the paranoia and dark corners but then im still going to end up staying up all night

[strawberryteddybear]

so my aunt, 2 cousins and their 2 dogs have been staying over for a while(i think its been like 2 weeks idk time blindness man) and this is fine, a little cramped with 4 people already living in a two bedroom apt but its fine. whats really bugging me is that i found out im allergic to dogs probably, never got like allergy tested or anything but around dogs and i already knew i was allergic to cats but i didnt know i was allergic to dogs cuz i haven't spent enough time around dogs to have a similar reaction(probably cuz im lowkey scared of dogs but thats a rant for another time) anyways what i wanted to say was this allergy stuff is getting rlly annoying:///(had to provide context) like with my cat allergy i can deal with it cuz i LOVE cats and like i dont hate dogs or smth, dogs r fine, there kinda cute ig but kinda scary so i dont like em as much as i love cats

[strawberryteddybear]

my sleep has been the absolute worst recently, so i wake up at like 4pm get tired at, like 10pm go to bed but cant sleep so im just tossing and turning till like 3-4 am when i finally fall asleep, wake up at 4pm do it all again

[strawberryteddybear]

im like half calm, half apathetic alot of the time and i dont really want to be, like its better than my anger issues from when i was like 13-15 but still

i haven't really had a good cry in a while, like ive teared up a bit but never a full on cry. not even when reading fics(but that might just be cuz ive been avoiding the major character death tag) i feel like ive got a good cry sesh just like trapped in my chest but it wont come out