Even though I love you
"I would have said yes, had they not come to get me." Emily imagined herself saying to Doyle. If only she'd ever had the chance.
I can't believe that I would have said yes to a terrorist's proposal. But as screwed up as our relationship was, it was the most stable one I've ever had.
"I kept the ring so that I could remember all the good times; with Declan."
My scars do a good enough job reminding me of you.
"I hate that I had to tell them about Declan."
And I only told them after I made sure that he was safe. I never wanted him to get hurt.
"I lied, saying I couldn't love Declan. If anything, I love that little boy more than I ever loved you."
How could I have loved you? You were so wrong for Emily. But I wasn't her, I was Lauren. You only loved Lauren. I was only Emily when I was with Declan. I was only Lauren when I was with you. You loved a lie; you loved someone that doesn't exist.
Emily tipped the drink back and thought about what she'd say to Ian Doyle if only she ever had the chance.
Ian, I had to turn you in, to save Declan. After you said you'd raise that boy to be a warrior, I had to. I couldn't let him live your life. And you would have done everything possible to get rid of me, had I threatened to take Declan and keep him from the very life that you had wanted him to live.
"I love that you love your son. Declan is the only reason I hesitated as long as I did, to turn you in."
Yes Ian, I turned you in, even though I love you.
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