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[krecktheproducer-blog]

(K-RECK THA PRODUCER)

[youforgotmenot]

Should I have stayed? Forgiven it all once more? After having moving on, Trying to forget All of it There's a special place And I'm hoping it's not the case That you think I've held onto something That really means nothing Other than that I'd rather forget After living with someone, yes I do regret Love has never left me Even after it's proven to let me down

[youforgotmenot]

Perhaps it's the bad relationships or the sting of first love washing over me again, but I miss you desperately. Coming up on five years and I don't think I've ever missed you more. Belated happy hippie birthday.

[youforgotmenot]

Note; if a girl falls down help her get back up. If she is too drunk to even walk and falls down, do not mount her, hump her, take off her underwear, and insert your hand inside her vagina.  - survivor of Brock Turner's rape. Not victim I feel this passage is important. It speaks volumes. Human decency to this level has no grey area.

[youforgotmenot]

I'm angry with my abuse. I'm angry I can't walk away from bad men because their desperation for me makes me feel like I'm in control. I'm angry that I've been used so much. I'm angry I got hit. I'm angry that I was raped more times than I can count. I'm angry that I know this is a secondary emotion and that this is hurt. I wish I didn't need to starve to feel okay. I wish that I had the strength to leave the bad relationships. I want to pull hair out and yell and throw things. I wish I weren't so sensitive. I don't want to cry. I don't want these problems.

[youforgotmenot]

I smoke cigarettes and eat McDonald's because I hate myself.

[youforgotmenot]

And can you believe just how happy we were and just how fast it fell apart? I'll never be sorry for the time. I'll always be sorry for how it ended. I love you with everything. Austin, i'm so sorry. Only sorry that you couldn't love me better.

[youforgotmenot]

If you're friendless and you know it, drink a beer! *gulp* *gulp*