problems with my mother
Well over the last couple of years my mom moved back to California after being married to someone less then a year. Every time or at least the last two marriages/dating situation, or whatever it needs to be called has blown up in her face and guess who she crawls back to . Me and my siblings. So to my point right now I am in the midst of a text convo between herself, me and my brother. My sister is in tears and my brother well he has a bad habit of not showing his emotions-which worries me. I being the oldest well it takes me a while to not explode or imploded just because when i get angry I get angry and quiet.
Yes I get that my mother is an adult and can make adult decisions but sometimes I feel she doesn’t think. All we ask her to do is wait. Get to really know the guy instead of just talking to him over Skype for 2 months. 2 fucking month. I met the guy once. He seems nice but i feel that he is guilting my mother into marrying him before he looses his sight due to Best syndrome-basically going blind slowly., They plan on getting married next month. I really don’t want to go to the wedding. Just say F this and ignore her getting married. Yeah I owe my mom a lot of taking care of me while I was broken but I feel more hurt that she doesn’t put her flesh and blood first. We really feel like we are on the back burner to her. I didn’t go to the last wedding but I knew something was up with the last guy she married.
Another thing that bothers me is my mom wants to be a mom again. I get it. Her kids are grown and doing there own thing. He has young kids/teens which she can be a mom to.. I feel like we are being replace and soon to be forgotten.
The last thing that bugs me is the line “Your mother and I made a mistake 30 years ago.” I am 29 which made me thing my mom cheated on him with my dad and got pregnant with me and was stuck with my dad and me as a mistake. That really hurts.....
I probably should just shake it off and be like I don’t care any more. Am I overreacting or should i just shrug it off?
