The thoughts in my head need to be put into text form!
Hmm, I sat here & battled in my head about this! I'm not a very private person I guess you can say but in a way I am! I don't know where to start so, I'll just start! The past two weeks of my life have had me in an aroused,unstable,maladjusted wreck! I lost someone near & dear to me. Like this person was closer , showed more love & care than anybody I've ever came in contact with! Like regardless of what they had going for them they ALWAYS made sure to see if I was okay! I don't know if it hurts cause I took it for granted or if it hurts cause I had it but never really had someone unconditionally & really in my corner! My favorite saying is "Just cause they in your circle don't mean they in your corner!" Man like this man had the biggest heart & warmest smile that could light up anybody day hell he could even make the devil smile! & you know I'd hear stories about him being sick with this or that & truly never paid it no mind like as if all the stories being told was a lie! I didn't wouldn't & couldn't believe he say she say mess. But baby when I tell you reality hit March 4th when I walked into a night club in Houston called "Fosters" for a "Benefit" show & mind you every time I decided to go out whether it was Thursday-Sunday or just once a year pop up in the club, I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt I was going to get the warmest smile hug & kiss a Kidd could ask for! Okay so back to the story so I walk in looking for him whom we call "Mama" ((we call him mama simply because we had a family called The House Of Glass)) but okay mama was nowhere in eye sight mind you I'm 5'4 & he 6'1 so nowhere in eye sight, I get grabbed & hugged tight by a former HOG member & she whispers in my ear don't hug mama! I pull back look like shiddd that woman ain't here & shit & she points, points to a chair ((wheelchair)) to be exact to a crippled frail scarred up man I wouldn't recognize even if I wanted to! Immediately my heart broke broke so bad I couldn't hold the tears in before he had seen me 😪 ((sorry the tears started flowing)) 😣 I'll be back