No matter how much Lydia tried to avoid people, she was having no luck. She tried to avoid leaving her apartment unless it was within a good reason, and even then it wasn’t often. Since she returned home from work, late Monday night. The only thing she wanted was to sleep because she couldn’t remember the last time she had a decent night’s sleep. But she also wanted to get to the bottom of this case. Wanted to find out what exactly her father’s involvement was. Every option she was trying to subtly explore, she was reaching a dead end. Concealing this vital piece of information from everybody, adamant that she could figure it out by herself was providing to be a mistake. The first person that came to mind was Robin, but Lydia couldn’t. How was she to explain to her friend that her dad was potentially involved with her cousin’s death? The fact this was even a possibility was beyond her. And honestly? She was terrified of what Robin might have thought if she told her: what if she thought Lydia was in on it too and that’s why she waited so long to tell her? Which is why she couldn’t tell her. There wasn’t enough proof yet. Once she found something concrete. But the longer she left it, the longer she began to doubt herself and her abilities. What if she couldn’t do this? What if her help would be useful?
But she couldn’t think straight. How could she think straight when she was barely eating properly, thus leading to the lack of energy she currently had up along with the lack of sleep. What remained of her energy was built upon far too many cups of coffee and energy drinks, which is what she was living on. It was safe to say she was a mess. Lydia wasn’t the type to spiral without reason, or let anyone see her like that. Yet isolating herself from the majority of the people she was close to was a terrible idea, she was too stubborn to admit defeat. Upon hearing the door knock, she quickly closed the lid of her laptop, leaving it in her room as she slowly made her way out of it, shutting the door behind her. Taking a breath, she brushed her hair out of her face in a feeble attempt to make herself look presentable. Even with her best effort, it wasn’t the case but she couldn’t even be bothered to try.
Opening the door a fraction, Lydia peeked through the gap she’d created by opening the door just to see who it was so she could shut it quickly if it was someone she didn’t want to see. The last time she’d let someone in she was told that she had lost her own self respect and whatnot. She really didn’t want to deal with that again. Seeing Robin’s face at the other side of the door surprised Lydia; she wasn’t sure if she was ready to see her yet. But she could put on a front, right? It wasn’t something she hadn’t done before to someone - put on a brave face. “Hey, Robin,” Lydia greeted with a small but weak smile, opening the door a little wider. “What’s up? Did you um, did you want to come in?” She asked, trying to force a cheerful tone as she spoke.
@robin-holloway


















