What do I want to do with my life?
Well long story short for most of my life I wanted to be a marine biologist. Before I realised that it takes a lot more scientific work and a lot less practical work. That and I'm terrified of being submerged in water with a bubble of air around me (seriously the thought of being in a submarine is suffocating and I nearly quite sea trek out of pure fear. Might make a post on that in the future if you don't know what sea trek is).
I wasn't sure what I wanted to do after school so I decided to take animal management because so far, every job I'd considered taking was animal-related. I'm now slightly regretting that decision...
I mean if I hadn't taken this course then I wouldn't have met one of my best friends ever! Plus I've learned a lot that I'm glad to know. But it's so stressful and hard and it's not as fun as I thought it would be. I really don't enjoy it all that much. The practical work, sure, but I only get around three/four hours of that a week.
I came home tonight basically in tears because I was so stressed and confused and I felt like I couldn't do this anymore. My big sister got home literally one minute after me and sat me down for a talk.
After some complaining and tears, we figured that while this course may not be for me, I might as well finish it. I can use it to get good grades, land a good enough job and be able to afford the education that I actually want instead of the education that I need. I was still confused as to what I wanted to do though.
For a while now I've wanted to be a YouTuber and I'm actually scared of not wanting to do that. My mum kept trying to convince me that it wasn't possible and YouTube "isn't a real job" and I feel like wanting to do something else would be giving in and that's the last thing I want to do.
I'm definitely still going to do YouTube, even if it doesn't get me far. I'm not about to give in to someone so blind and closed-minded to what I want.
But then I got another idea; what if I went into robotic engineering? I mean I have an affinity with robots and animatronics and how they work. I can 100% see myself having fun making animatronics. And that's something I want to do! Maybe for a job, or maybe not. Regardless, I want to do it.
At the moment I know next to nothing about animatronics but I'm willing and eager to learn. But there's one problem.
Search 'animatronics' in a search engine. What did you get? 75% FNaF and 24% irl horror related animatronics.
It's like animatronics don't exist out side of the horror genre! Well guess what.
I want to shove these guys in the world's face and scream "THIS IS WHAT ANIMATRONICS SHOULD BE SEEN AS!"
These guys were a super popular American animatronic band between the 80's and 90's called the Rockafire Explosion and trust me, they're amazing! You can keep your Chuck E Cheese's shit, these guys need to make a comback. Aaron Fechter, their creator, still has some of them left and is even coming out with a line of plush toys.
I just want to work on animatronics like these guys. To put the frames together, place the wires and check the cylinders and program their movements.
Imagine working in Disney! They use animatronics in their live action films and there are plenty of animatronics in their theme parks around the world! A job in robotic engineering could take me to great places!
Another problem, however is education. It's nearly impossible to find a college or university in the UK for robotic engineering. And if I want one that's close enough for me to not have to live away well then shoot I guess I'll find a fairy while I'm there. Simply, there are none.
Heh. Imagine getting one-on-one training with Aaron Fechter himself. That would just be dream come true. I mean, impossible but a girl can dream right?
