#rocket rambles

[myxxmachine]

Daria's a really cool show about how social isolation can be a self-inflicted issue when you've become recluse and judgemental as a defense mechanism and that the people you assume to be 'dumb' and 'shallow' are actually also people with their own experiences. But I think a good chunk of people just took it as "oh im soooo daria"

[st4rrl0rdd]

Nebula: *throws down Buckys real arm.* Rocket: Not that one!! I meant the VIBRANIUM ONE.

[rockyt-fuel]

Neil Josten Headcanons

(this is the first gif that came up when I searched his name lol)

Anyway, he beamed this information into my brain!

He's definitely mixed (Jamaican-British + Scottish/Polish-American)

Obviously grew up around his mother, and even if he is capable of hiding an accent, he will slip into a British accent while he's speaking fast at times

Speaking of accents, he can faithfully copy an accent after hearing it a few times. Could seriously be a professional impersonator

Has a really bad staring problem, like will look at people up and down in public and does not care disrespectful it seems

Is really keen about reading body language and facial expressions, at first for survival reasons but now it's just a habit

His eyes stare into your soul

Has a mild case of hemophobia (fear of blood)

Gets really uneasy at the smell of blood, and gets fixated on cleaning off blood immediately before it can clot and stick

Really finds a love for photography

Not only finding closure in letting himself be photographed, but also just random things- his friends, his family, the sun, his food order- he wants to capture every last little thing, no matter how insignificant

He wants to remember it all. It makes him feel rooted. It makes him feel like a person

Is scarily good at improv, will make up a story on the spot and run with it

Is the definition of committing to the bit

Some strangers that he's met in passing know him by a different name, and he won't correct them if he ever meets them again

Neil forced himself to like the colors grey and black, because those were the colors he wore the most often

He didn't think much about his favorite color until a freshman asked him once, and he realized he had no idea

After some experimentation, he realized that his favorite color is yellow and now he wears at least one yellow piece of clothing/accessory

Really likes roller skating, but not biking or skateboarding

Something about having freedom of movement and full range of motion that's unique with roller skating is comfortable for him

Neil doesn't really care about his gender. Whether he is cis or not, he does not really care either way. He is who he is.

NSFW

Repressed demisexual who had no time or space to form an emotional connection with anyone before, so obviously is very confused about the signals his body is giving him when he finally has urges.

Fantasizes often and the slightest things will bring him back to the person on his mind.

Doesn't need to use his hands or be touched in order to finish, being alone with his thoughts is more than enough

It's like he can perfectly encapsulate how his partner sounds and feels, as if they were right next to him or on top of him

Is very enthusiastic and very loud, and would be just as excited if his partner returned the favor.

Vocal about what feels good and what doesn't, but is very open to experimenting

Will ramble endlessly if you don't shut him up, talking about his partner and what he loves about them, and babble about how they make him feel

Has a lot of stamina and willingness to please

[bustedrocket]

how did he escape the tumblr sexyman beam

[rocketkit]

bobs doodles. rambling in the tags

[threeautisticbrothers]

i lpve jake wiskodnslrjbebe

[rocketknight66]

Does anyone have any Digimon Discord servers with a section for writing or fanfic talk? I'm working on something, but haven't really found many circles in the community for fics.

[knives-and-narcissi]

Hange’s Decision

So I’m on the Levihan train today, and something just occurred to me about the whole ‘did Levi reject Hange’s wish to live together in 139?’ Discourse.

The argument against this being a Levihan moment is that ‘yes, Hange confessed love through her desire to runaway with Levi, and he rejected her.’

I think we’ve been looking at it all wrong.

I think Hange rejected her own wish; Levi merely points out why she did and basically tells her it’s okay. He understands.

Let me explain:

Here we have the original question from Hange - “maybe we should just live here together - right … Levi?”

Whether this is meant romantically or platonically doesn’t matter right now. That’s not what I’m getting at (although, as much as I may have different ships which are my favourite, I believe that Levihan is the most heavily inferred ship out of all the Levi or Hange centric ships in canon).

Anyway. She asks the question because she thinks Levi is unconscious or asleep. It’s a moment of weakness that she probably wouldn’t have indulged had Levi been awake.

But Levi heard. He just doesn’t respond. He’s not really a particularly rash person; he’s a brooder, so it makes sense that he wouldn’t respond right away even if he was feeling in any fit state to - he was likely mulling over her words. Perhaps they initially caught him off guard. Or perhaps he was still just too weak to entertain a conversation.

We have the white bar that signifies some time has passed - we don’t know how much, though. What we do know is that, by the next panel, Hange has set to work building a cart. To pull Levi.

Now. Here’s the thing. If Hange herself was really in no rush to leave the forest - if she truly thought she could remain there with Levi, hiding away from the world, why does she need a cart right now? Answer: she doesn’t.

She’s building it because she has already answered her own question on behalf of both of them - they cannot realistically stay there because they’re both too duty-bound. Levi was never supposed to hear her question; it was an expression aloud of her inner desires rather than her really being torn about what to do.

Levi was never supposed to answer. By the time Eren speaks to them and Levi addresses her, she’s already moved on in her own head.

We see later that it’s Levi who brings the question back up!

On to the next page -

People forget that Levi heard Hange in the previous panels, and argue that ‘his first priority on waking up is his vow to Erwin, because he asks where Zeke is!’

Well, perhaps not. Levi was already awake, or perhaps dozing, because we know he heard Hange earlier. If he was so concerned about Zeke from the outset, why didn’t he try and croak out the question to Hange as soon as he gained consciousness the first time?

His concern is suddenly apparent now because - nothing to do with his vow - Eren has just spoken to them all through paths. Eren has gained the full power of the founder. We know there’s only one way that can be done - and Levi knows too. He failed to keep Eren and Zeke apart. Eren’s paths speech is confirmation of this fact.

That’s where his concern stems from. The one thing they were trying to avoid until they had more info blew up in their faces. Zeke and Eren touched.

Levi knows, but he doesn’t want to believe it. His question to Hange is a final plea for someone to tell him his assumptions are wrong.

Levi admits his failure to her. Hange can see how cut up he is about it (literally and emotionally 😅) so she tries to reassure him.

People here again assume that ‘but for now …’ is leading on to Hange again asking Levi to stay in the forest with her. But on the next page, she’s blushing and surprised at the idea of Levi having heard her before. He wasn’t supposed to hear her selfish wish. So why would she voluntarily ask him to his face here?

I think it’s more likely that Hange is simply trying to figure out a way to tell Levi that he’s in no fit state to personally take revenge on Zeke. He can’t even walk. ‘I’m sure you want revenge, but for now … maybe you should focus on resting and healing.’ This has nothing to do with them running away together.

As I said before, it’s Levi that circles back to her question - Levi that puts her on the spot, pushes her for more. Maybe his question isn’t rhetorical at all. Hange certainly doesn’t take it as such.

His question goes,

このまま - as it is,

逃げ隠れて - (if we) run and hide

なにがのこる - what’s left?

He asks her because he knows that she posed that as an option - ‘we should just live here together.’ So he’s asking her, what is there for us here Hange? He wants to see if she will expand on what she said earlier. Why does she want to live here with him?

Hange recognises what he’s getting at immediately-

‘You heard me talking’.

Her expression quite clearly shows embarrassment - the blush, the sweatdrop - Levi knows he wasn’t supposed to hear. Levi is notoriously not the best in terms of social interactions - he can be a little awkward at expressing himself. It doesn’t feel out of character here that he doesn’t respond to Hange’s statement head on.

He is an exceptionally good judge of character though, as we’ve seen in the past. Poor at expressing himself, but good at reading others. And he reads Hange’s embarrassment right here, because he knows her so well. He knows she realised it was a selfish wish to begin with, and is a little embarrassed that he heard her. She’s supposed to be the commander, after all. Duty first.

And so, instead of picking at the sensitive topic more, Levi himself, true to form, also returns to duty. He points out the cart. The one that Hange really wouldn’t have needed to make if she truly intended to ‘hide’ in the forest with Levi. If they were going to live there together.

‘I know you. You’re not able to stay out of the action.’

When he says this line, he’s turned his gaze back to her, and she’s looking at him, too. Her eyes to me look like they’re filling up. Her brows are pinched up. She looks emotional. That shared eye contact as they speak feels very poignant.

It’s like he’s excusing her before she even needs to explain herself. I know you didn’t really mean it, don’t worry. It was just a wish. You don’t have to explain yourself to me. You have a job to do. (Regardless of how I might feel about what you wanted.)

No further mention of Levi’s role in this moment, or Levi needing to do anything. He’s completely focused on Hange, and what she wants to do. She started building that cart before he ever addressed her wish, because she has a deep sense of duty that no matter how much she wants to, Hange cannot run from. And Levi understands that, and goes so far as to tell her so - to reassure her that it’s okay that she would never really have pursued that selfish little wish for them both.

What we are not shed any light on here, is how Levi would have answered her question. But I do believe we get an answer for that in 132, when he literally dedicates his heart to her.

To claim that Levi rejects Hange’s ‘love confession’ or ‘selfish wish’ here does a huge disservice to both of their characters. It takes the focus away from Hange’s own selfless rejection of that wish, and Levi’s acknowledgement of her inability to let go of her duty as commander of the Survey Corps.