Rants with Courtney.
Looking back on my day I find that I can complain about certain things, but I simply don't want to.
Today was a good day, perfect almost. And it's been a long while since I could say that.
I have been going to two different churches. I don't know why, but that's what I feel like I need right now. Part of me feels wrong about it because I've been taught that you go to one church and pour yourself into it to the point where you burn yourself out and then you move onto another church and do the same thing.
But I don't want to do that.
I want to pour myself out and bless people all over the place, because I'm getting poured into so much because that's what I need.
Anyways, this morning at my first church it wasn't perfect. I went there feeling sad and lonely and just used. I left there feeling like I just ate a huge spiritual meal. That makes no sense, but I felt full and complete from God. I didn't really talk to anyone and no one really talked to me for the most part. But I served and I even got to make it to main service to worship to my favorite song.
I then went home and nothing special happened.
But then I went to my second church and I realized that I wasn't spiritually full, I "ate" or was "fed" more. This message was amazing! and I was able to openly joke around and laugh without any fear of being put down by someone. It was almost freeing.
Someone also told me that I should sign up for leadership at my second church. It just amazes me that someone can see that in me. That I should be in a leadership role. Because two years ago there was no way that someone would see that in me.
That's awesome!