dearest inso,
welcome back, sweet author! 🫶🏻 I just got home from Seoul the day before yesterday and jetlag has been relentless, but getting to read the delicious new chapter has softened the blow for sure.
It’s fun watching MC fill in the blanks for all of the questions she hasn’t allowed herself to linger on up until this point. Also watching her unwittingly unfurl like a new blossoming flower in the light of the idea of being their boys’ soulmate, resistant as she is for very real and understandable reasons.
I’m glad Hyunjin was the one that went after her. In her current mental state, nerves raw and exposed, I feel he has the most naturally gentle touch to soothe her without being too much. Like her own personal balm. While I’m sure the others also want to comfort her in any way they can, I feel their flavors of desperation might be too abrasive like rubbing alcohol or hydrogen peroxide, whereas Hyunjin’s brand of romanticism and sensitivity makes him more like aloe.
I’m looking forward to all of the ways the boys will express what they feel for MC and HOW they feel it, without this secret holding them back anymore.
I’m curious if we’ll get any side drabble of the boys POV when Hyunjin goes after MC? Or more specifically, when he shows back up after being gone so long smelling like her 😮💨 Of course as always you don’t have to answer, I’m more so (wishfully) thinking out loud.
I do hope you’re doing well. Not to pry for specifics, but I saw you mention in your notes that life has been difficult lately. I hope things start looking up 🫶🏻 If you need to take more time off to deal with things, the readers that care and support you will still be here waiting.
Sidebar, when I was in Seoul I stopped by Lotte Star Avenue to see the boys’ handprints! Comparing hand sizes with them was a bucket list item of mine. I’m glad I got the opportunity 💕
If you’re curious, for research purposes 🙂↕️, from biggest hands to smallest:
Hyunjin > Seungmin > I.N > Changbin > Bang Chan > Han > Lee Know > Felix
xoxo
Hi hi! Omggg welcome homeeeee 🥰 I hope you had fun!
I didn't tag RON with "unreliable narrator" because I'm a little stubborn about the tag in general (I love an unreliable narrator! But in some ways are we not all unreliable... I end up tagging things like VNM, where the narrator lies to you, as unreliable, and things like RON, where the narrator just dodges and avoids, as not) BUT one thing I really love about this part of the story is the reveal that MC has in fact been thinking about the soulmate thing hahahaha. All those months of readers calling her dumb for not seeing the signs... And I bit my tongue.... 😭 I mean I guess she didn't commit to the idea! But if it was me in an 8 vs 1 "are we soulmates" situationship mental battle I would also gaslight myself I think 🧍
....I'm rambling! My point is I've also liked her filling in the blanks, so I'm relieved to hear it! It's fun that she's kind of given herself permission to think about it now hahahaha
I think the guilt and responsibility that MC feels for Hyunjin is helping him out a lot here 😆 What she says here -- "You’ve never wanted to break anyone’s heart — but certainly, you’ve never wanted to break Hyunjin’s" -- is a lot of it, to me! I agree that I think this would have gone very differently with literally any other boy
"when he shows back up after being gone so long smelling like her" I hadn't considered it before but this actually sounds really fun 👀
My best friend/anchor (they're like my Soohyun. or maybe I'm like their Soohyun, and they're like my MC...??? 😆) might be dying right now, so everything has been very week-by-week, to be honest! Once when I was a kid I got my leg tangled in kelp, and in that first moment before I looked down I thought it was just my board leash, before I remembered I'd stopped tying my board to my leg a few weeks ago because it kept hitting me in the head when I knocked out. Sometimes having fun doing anything feels like that moment all over again, hahahaha -- looking down and expecting to see what you always see, but you're drowning and you just don't know it yet
...Which is very dramatic! I haven't been talking about this a lot 🧍 What I wanted to say is I'm just going to take weeks off when I need to, and generally keep trying to do the best I can 🙆
Omggg you saw them!! Are these the ones they did when they were pretty young...? I wonder if they've changed at all 🤔
I'm glad you made it back safe! I hope you get lots of rest 😊 Thanks for reading!!! 💛💛💛